Aquarius 15° (February 3)

Day 4 of Blent. Today will not end up great on the real estate front, but we are undaunted and trusting in this retrograde to point us toward the right opportunity. I will manage to get some more pages under my belt today but not all I need. We get a nice note from Joe’s Pub and will take them up on their generous offer. I continue to slowly pack, putting all my affairs, by category, into their own boxes, etc. Some ideas are coming to mind about what needs doing to finish the current chapter I’m weighted down in and moving on to new pastures tomorrow. Meanwhile here are some notes:

That gaslighting and second guessing: It causes a rift in personality, such that one feels that being their true, natural self isn’t enough, or worse, too much. Taurus females are a sensitive bunch, and they feel the brunt of any assault, no matter how subtle, register in their emotional body which can ultimately manifest physically. To use a bovine metaphor, Taurus feels branded by the labels people slap on her, and they aren’t easy for her to shake off. So as carefree, and even wild, as you are meant to be, Taurus, you are, paradoxically, the most readily yoked and corralled. Now, sometimes it’s not just jealous peers and siblings who take part in cutting you down to their desired size—we had long suspected, and years working with clients has confirmed, that there’s about a fifty-fifty chance that Taurus’s own mother can, if only at times, pile on, incapable of keeping her own jealousy of her daughter in check. Taurus and her mom are generally not cut from the same cloth, the elder being very status- (and self-) conscious, cautious and admonishing, and so she might turn a blind eye to the Taurus being emotionally body-slammed by other children, including her own. More times than not Taurus’ parents lead quite separate lives, even if they’ve remained together under the same roof, and the Bull girl may feel that it is her father alone who sees through the glare of the gaslight for who she truly is. Together, they perhaps share an unspoken understanding; still he mightn’t outright stand up for her either, rather minimalizing the situation, and silently suggesting Taurus pay her in-house dementors little mind. But she feels that divide. And she will talk to herself, without words, as she does with her dad, perhaps, asking herself why it is she inspires so much joy in some and disdain in others. It wasn’t always this way—she wonders, or was it? One thing is for sure, it seems to be getting stickier as she gets older, mild censure turning to outright derision. And so, she bides her time until she can break out on her own, which she will do, like a Bull right out of the gate. Geographical cures are generally frowned upon for most people as they never truly do the expected trick of leaving emotional baggage behind; but for Taurus, it can do a great deal of good in an ironic twist, of which she won’t be aware at the time. Taurus will see breaking out on her own as a chance to reinvent herself and being anyone she wishes to be; but, typically, she ends up reclaiming the self she’d been squashing deep down inside herself for so long she doesn’t recognize it when it comes flowering back to life. Taurus can feel that this new-found freedom of authentic self is actually her faking it—how’s that for irony? The point is, by young adulthood, Taurus might perceive herself as having been put through the ringer, twisted by the tales of her upbringing of mixed messages, trying to go where the genuine love is, while struggling with her own sense of self, a perpetual pop-quiz in a true or false format, hoping maybe somebody out there has some right answers. Maybe she can glimpse her veritable self in the mirror of an admirer’s eyes.

The following blocks of text are exceprts from my first year of  Blagues, nos. 1541-1545. I am reading through all of my Blagues, five per day, and posting some samples here. Now, in my sixth year of writing this Blague, by the time I get to my seventh, I will have journeyed through all the daily Blagues of my first five years. If that’s confusing I apologize. Year seven, I’ll only have to read through year six, once a day.

Five more days of Blague from 2019 being on the Boat in Greece and Sicily. So not going to post these expository entrees.

To view the original Sabian Symbol themed 2015 Cosmic Blague corresponding to this day: Flashback! The degree point of the Sabian Symbol may at times be one degree higher than the one listed here. The Blague portrays the starting degree of for this day ( 0°,  for instance), as I typically post in the morning, while the Sabian number corresponds to the end point (1°) of that same 0°-1° period. There are 360  degrees spread over 365/6 days per year—so they nearly, but not exactly, correlate.

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