Capricorn 15° (January 5)

I will end up at Fanizzi’s this evening and have some mussels and cod which wasn’t half bad. Today was not easy. Well in a sense it really was. All I said was “I do” when asked to tell the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth. Otherwise it was a nothing burger and I was encouraged by the fact that (I can’t get into it) I seem to not need to lose all the power and be subject to somebody else’s dictates. That is not fair. Nice people at the bar from Australia. It was overall pretty jolly but I am becoming increasingly uneasy. I must get my act in gear and I know I’m hitting extinction bursts en route to doing so. lllllllllll Back to my little blue notebook of collected words that will now forever be recorded herein. (This is the gloomiest of the gloomiest days–I’m writing from the next New Year’s eve in the future).  I get up and stroll a magic path long overdue. I am walking off the past, sneaking in on down the avenue, to reunite with my bicycle I left behind. If you didn’t have fantasies you wouldn’t have problems. It is never to late to become….my sixties will be like my twenties. Writing and performing bad poestry. Good Business is the best art. As my libido failed I had more sex. What is misunderstood is that now I’m a huge disappointment and so I was doing loved ones a favor by outsourcing. Because I’ve been indulgent in so many hedonistic ways it’s why now I don’t have to be. My love that was they wonder why I couldn’t be this person while we were together but the answer is in the question. If I’m to do this I’d like to make it until 90. For Tom it really is a first draft it needs to be more prescriptive and poetic at the same time and what strikes you know as dense should become sidebars after bicycle carrots shopping read the notebooks first which is exactly what I’m doing same as with sex becoming a pariah more than being alone or reveling in solitude this is how I’m finding or have found my voice having no body to talk to so we get revisions to Madam X read full Virgo woman after having read the sample declare that this is part of the process that the ex never … talk to her about the star of foam. I get to be a true artist now I get to be the older alchemist I’ve always wanted to meet I get to channel my circuit energy and own the truth because now have now learned what it’s like to be suicidal perhaps now I have a chance to live to a ripe old age . Because I’ve been so scapegoated and gaslit shunned and something by all our mutual friends I can now just slid I don’t know normal captivity and containment I have no idea what that means I can now escape their normative captivity and containment.  

To view the original Sabian Symbol themed 2015 Cosmic Blague corresponding to this day: Flashback! The degree point of the Sabian Symbol may at times be one degree higher than the one listed here. The Blague portrays the starting degree of for this day ( 0°,  for instance), as I typically post in the morning, while the Sabian number corresponds to the end point (1°) of that same 0°-1° period. 

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