Capricorn 16° (January 6)

Turkey and Cheese Sandwich flunch. Giant salmon cake dinner. Chatting with D.B. by phone. Trying to figure out after yesterday what next steps might be. Anyway I have very little to say on this day. But it does bring the topic of the ukulele back up once again. There is nothing to escape no controlling presence to barricade against I can now occupy myself be.  more own captive something myself organizing myself pretty well myself through punishments and labours squeezing myself into a hair shirt a boy unloved being denied might enable me to fall into it being unloved being denied love might enable me to fall into it there is nothing to escape no controlling presence to barricade against I can now occupy myself be more own captive something myself pretty myself through punishments and labors  Because I’ve been so completely misunderstood by others This is why I am now beginning to understand by self so fully I don’t want to make friends with anyone which is why I might soon be swept up in some social swirl. Never mind the fact that I had all the ideas I mean only one of us could carry on a brand like ours publishing books specifically but I mean to say is I’ve always been the writer of course but also the conceptualizer the conceiver the Weaver of hour intellectual property our take on the subject’s hour well you know we didn’t make a lot of money but it certainly paid off in ways over the years and still doing so the point being I’m the one who can move forward because I’m the one who was always in that position to do so you know I wrote under what was the dual brand and there’s no refuting or even debating the equality of the two parties in relationship to their responsibility and contribution to the brand I under the larger umbrella of the brand you know I generated the writing that is not to say that I am more than 50% of the brand I just wrote you know 97% of the books you know. The great thing about the dictate function is that it can start getting me into the space of you know presenting to an audience which I’m soon going to have to do or die. It’s a daunting prospect what can I say but one that has to be done and you know I’m you know I’ve had a glove slapped in my face as a challenge you know when by someone who was prepared for the battle before you know the challenge was even made you know it’s that ability to put that fix in and use time as a weapon end tool should be the other way around tool and weapon I am trying to write these things down as I go I’m actually coming to you from New Year’s Eve in the future from the date of this entry and I’ve been spending the day um physically tying up all minutiae and um loose ends to otherwise and um making a very conscious shift from 22 to 23; and in so doing I know that I’m preparing the way and um that’s a thing preparing the way and it’s a good thing and it probably in the you know zodiacal scheme is ruled by Aquarius because like John the Baptist prepares ye the way and gets everyone else ready um he’s like the Barker outside uncommercial St inviting you in to see the main event sure. Um so I will go through these legal pads that I have older than the ones I’ve been you know going through today already and let’s see like you know just going to start chucking things away but I might you know there might be things that are worth dictating in and having them you know become separate documents or whatnot moving forward so right I’m going to start reading right now.* 

To view the original Sabian Symbol themed 2015 Cosmic Blague corresponding to this day: Flashback! The degree point of the Sabian Symbol may at times be one degree higher than the one listed here. The Blague portrays the starting degree of for this day ( 0°,  for instance), as I typically post in the morning, while the Sabian number corresponds to the end point (1°) of that same 0°-1° period. 

Typos happen. I don’t have a proofreader. And I like to just write, post and go! Copyright 2022 Wheel Atelier Inc. All Rights Reserved.