Libra 2° (September 24)

Day Forty-Two E.D.A.N.O.W.W. Oysters and Caesar with Shrimp. Got served today and let it happen. The powers spoke but same old, same old. Spoke with the moving people we are on for next week. Sent everything to Waltham, including another inventory of what’s what. I will need to start the positive spin of saying what it is that’s coming with me. Trying to make it as easy as possible for everyone. Starting to be very happy I am me, after all. I will meet that lovely actress and marital counselor (how ironic) and head out early for sure. I get glimpses of optimism but they are few and far between. Today I miss making dinner and listening to something like Pippin and singing along with the person I love. I was always happiest with the simplest things and by just being together an talking and laughing and dreaming and scheming. The friends I thought were closest to me are the most difficult to find, while I am so frozen and reluctant to make new ones. As much as I want to land somewhere I am so frightened that I will be desperately lonely and not be able to cope with the pain. I read a critique of my late great acting teacher recently and it was so snarky and horrible. I wrote this in response: I don’t like your article at all. Edward Morehouse was a tough-loving teacher who not only schooled actors in their craft but helped them understand how criticism was inspiration through which to grow. Uta was unnecessarily cruel at times, often favoring students who took her lcass for decades (and donated heavily to the school). She could be awful. I studied with Ed and then Uta and I returned to Ed. When I appeared in a small role on Broadway he was there on opening night. Those of us who took seriously his ccritiques (which I agree lent themselves to some comic parody—I created a character based on him for a comedy troupe) and let them motivate us to get a signature “good for you” next time around, getting over our own sensitive egos and deliverying what was necessary for the character in the scene in the play enjoyed a kind of elation that didn’t happen to students who were with coddling teachers who didnt want to get under students’ skins. With Ed you had to grow a pair and fast and when you won an accolade from him at the end of your scene you knew you deserved it.

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Libra 1° (September 23)

Day Forty-One E.D.A.N.O.W.W. Sardine lunch. Clams. Halibut and Fried Rice. I can only do a little bit at a time. Little by little we will get there. I am missing so much. I thought we would always belong together. And all anybody wants me to do is move. Easy for them to say. They made their love-and-money pacts ages ago. They had their children as glue and their families for support and to return to. I have a sense now of who would have come and picked her up in the night.  Tick, tick boom. I cannot stay up all night thinking or writing. But I will do what I have to do to make things that much more expansive. I was really very happy in Paris and I believe I need to find a reason to get back to it. Queen Latifah is making some hand money. I will be adding to all these Blagues. Starting tomorrow it has to happen. It is very important to make it happen. I will finish eating the food I bring home from dinner. I need to start thinking about all the ways I can monetize. The TV producers are contacting us and we need to show up for it, but someone is still floating around the world taking all these opportunities for granted. I miss my life. I need to get back to my roots. Not that I know what that means to be honest, but I am going to do my best to figure it out.

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Libra O° (September 22)

Day Forty-One E.D.A.N.O.W.W. Sardine lunch. Clams. Halibut and Fried Rice. I can only do a little bit at a time. Little by little we will get there. I am missing so much. I thought we would always belong together. And all anybody wants me to do is move. Easy for them to say. They made their love-and-money pacts ages ago. They had their children as glue and their families for support and to return to. I have a sense now of who would have come and picked her up in the night. Tick, tick boom. I cannot stay up all night thinking or writing. But I will do what I have to do to make things that much more expansive. I was really very happy in Paris and I believe I need to find a reason to get back to it. Queen Latifah is making some hand money. I will be adding to all these Blagues. Starting tomorrow it has to happen. It is very important to make it happen. I will finish eating the food I bring home from dinner. I need to start thinking about all the ways I can monetize. The TV producers are contacting us and we need to show up for it, but someone is still floating around the world taking all these opportunities for granted. I miss my life. I need to get back to my roots. Not that I know what that means to be honest, but I am going to do my best to figure it out.

Hey! It’s Boxing Day and you weren’t on my list to beef up but you look a little skimpy. So I thought I might give you a little bit of attention just to give you you know mild beefing up you know some whip cream shanty I didn’t say shanty I said shanty Chantilly thank you um someone will earth these things one day and might find gold there in but in the meantime it’s my survival I just need to see a beefy don’t get me started there’s a purity coming your way you should know about it really will happen like it’s yeah the year of living cosmically you know it’s such a great idea and it combines kind of situational experience with this practice of giving yourself over to certain principles this time of year because how they match and all of that like I will come across a thank you note from a defunct magazine whose the editors name I don’t even remember or have any clue as to what she’s talking about like 0 memory and yet I have a hard time throwing away a thank you card that expresses so much gratitude about the work and stuff it’s very weird but hey you know I’m the one who has the OR we’ll have the storage facility close at hand I’m the one that’s touched every object I that stuff is no longer waiting for me you know well it is for you because you’re in where are you your September 23rd or something and I’m still open up I’m still Boxing Day December 26 alright well I’ll see you when I see you then alright bye 

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Virgo 29° (September 21)

Day Thirty Nine E.D.A.N.O.W.W. Who knows what I’ll eat. (Clams and Fish Tacos) I spent last evening catching up on this side of things and generally straightening things out. I’m going to stop worrying for one thing. Talk about mixed messages. They say they want A but the give me B. So kind of at the end of my tether. Honestly how did I get into this dark a place? Me? I was such a child of light. Darkness was for other people. I have become so skeptical. I think everyone is so full of shit. As well we know they are. I suppose I want to say that at some point in the process like you know Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday you know I could just be writing Virgo man and plugging it in um the trick is obviously getting through Tuesday And I’ll check I think that since we started yesterday 25th 2620 728th that’s 4 * 6 that’s 64 and uh so that really leaves two more days worth of work to go well so it’s probably better just to focus and finish everything that needs doing because otherwise yeah it’s fine if everyone is getting seven days were in good shape because if I took all seven days then I could be 3 pages a day and that’s more than enough for the blog moving forward so the second I can switch I will switch but I can’t switch quite yet none of this makes any sense to anyone who will ever read this but you know who will ever read this doesn’t really matter in the end I’m just going to watch bad TV and go to bed as soon as I write these four more blogs I mean I liked the show don’t look up but you know doesn’t necessarily end well although I do think it’s quite an important fluffy film OK I am going to smoke a little more I decided I see no reason why not I mean boy oh boy it’s great to be writing this stuff that’s happening in the present buried here in the past because you cannot believe what’s going to happen I mean this whole having others over to the house tabako it all stems from well the only person that can stem from and it’s all under the guise of like oh I confided in this person I you know like as if you know well upon departure it was said that you know I’ve only told my shrink well some of them went on to tell everybody else and we know your audience these are not the people to tell these sorts of things so that’s fine I don’t really care I can’t circle the square or square the circle or whatever the **** they are phrases when it comes to friends who’ve just become so unlike myself the homophobia the transphobia call the phobius it’s kind of crazy well do you know it is what it is I will write my book or I will write my book I will why do you like the idea of hosting now that we mention it but you don’t make as much money still and I am quite charming so how about this let’s do this dry January sort out all the details February it’s putting out feelers month March dissolution getting really really deep potentially David F says he’s going to this monastery well this retreat let me see what it’s called it is called carmet choling I have to look that up it’s in Vermont a lot of things tend to be in Vermont these days with all the shushing and such I will end up eating more food tonight believe it or not because of all that I’m doing all the energy that I’m putting out because I’m not failing I refuse to fail and you know I might just use the dictate button for more things than not if that makes any sense at all I include in the present amount to be handled a great deal more then I really will be tasked with doing however I do need to do the whole mechanics of it which takes a lot of time setting up the blogs in that regard so you know I have my work cut out for me alright that’s enough for me today 

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Virgo 29° (September 20)

Day Thirty Eight E.D.A.N.O.W.W. Lamb Chops and Polenta Frites, Salad. I had that early at Winslow’s where I was happy I went in the end because I ran into Mya who helped me immensely on this difficult day. I came home and plowed through a bunch of work. I had a revelation the other night that Declan is perhaps one of those kids I met at Oysterfest in 2019. Friends are nowhere to be found. That is to say the former friends. Everybody takes sides even if they say they don’t. But I have had the caring bred out of me these past few weeks. But of course Declan was one of those kids that was a very strange time having to get home in the middle of the night and without my coat which disappeared Oh well so many years ago now it doesn’t really matter but I think I saw deklan wearing that kind of it’s almost super right wing sweater and anyway it would give me pause Oh yeah I’m going to be very mellow and abstemious and I’m going to refill these coffers which I can do Best Buy just making sort of an inquiry a day going down a list I need to do very little I need to write very few pages of the book every day like 3 pages that’s it and this way you know just keep it OK four pages of the most that’s a lot though but like 4 * 5 days a week is you know in other words it’s enough especially now because it doesn’t have to be a perfect draft it could just be thoughts on paper and really get it moving so that by April we have an entire book that we could sell um which you know I don’t think that happens very often anymore in life um yeah what else was I going to say um yeah I just want to write if I was talking about just doing very few pages a day and then you know you’ve written the blog so that’s done um you’ll get ideas during the course of the day if you start the day writing um it would be very good to be doing Bikram and be going for long walks on the beach maybe not alone or stick to like long looking be nude and feel fabulous I mean that sounds really fun to me um right now you’ve got to get all this weight off and jump start your physical life and that will be a great start you have to realize that you’re super organized you’re going to work everything out um you’re going to make room in that storage I think that’s really important I don’t know how to do it but baby take the step ladder from here and use that yeah you stop there sort of figure out some stuff and see if you can’t move things back and move other things forward and kind of get everything squared away such that if everything from here had to go there well it couldn’t cut it it would be so hard to do but might be possible we need you to pretty much get rid of all your clothes which will be a great boon it’s coming what we need to focus on most is just sneaking in and doing this book and you know we can start properly you know five days from now and greet the new year in such a way that it makes sense I hope that I can get everything brought to the table bye L’s birthday that would be a real boon to us both anyway I’m going to work on stuff with lawyer get it to them I’m going to not talk to her she’ll send me some kind of note or text saying thank you hopefully and I’ll just send it back you know some kind of emoji and that’s it end let her know when things are going in a direction or not because Tuesday I really truly need to get down to Wellfleet maybe get my haircut probably have to do a food shop by then too I imagine um Thursday also works and yeah continue to make magic people and sewer takes us 

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Virgo 28° (September 19)

Day Thirty Seven E.D.A.N.O.W.W. Pasta w/ Anchovy, Tomato. Good for me for staying home apparently. We have stumbled upon a gem today; jokes written for Steve Carey to deliver as Phyliss Diller at Ryan Landry and Scott Martinez wedding. 

I wouldn’t want to get on ryans bad side but I see no alternative as he doesn’t have a good one or I see no alternative does he have a good one 

I’m not saying Ryan’s cheap but he does something out and he does something his depends some seriously people think of Ryan as tight fisted but that wasn’t my experience and I was wearing oven mitts OK that makes no sense 

Now I’m not being fair not giving equal time to Ryan spouse what can I say about skadi nothing.

Actually that’s not true there have been rumors of drug use but I know Scotty that’s impossible Ryan only gives you enough allowance for milk money 

Everyone knows Brian and Scotty have three lap dogs one of which has true theatrical talent but I always forget which one Ali Debbie or somebody else 

Fluffy that was it 

Provincetown recently celebrated another celebrated or wedding jenn and eve would you stand up please take a good look at a real couple that’s terrible Ryan is so controlling the gold dust orphans can’t even keep there trick money Ryan calls everyone Mary that’s what comes from thinking you’re Jesus that was that got line got on the show Ryan hates the phone and especially hates to text oh but he loves to subtext the blah blah blah of blah blah blah I think it’s unfair to say Ryan doesn’t have an original idea in his head but he is now working on mine camp his personal memoirs mine camp 

I think I need to smoke something. That oral fixation rearing it’s head. If you’re reading this and tempted to make a joke I promise you it won’t be funny. Sometimes I like taking photographs of some of these old pieces of paper because they’re just so telling about the time and space mentally one was in also emotionally sometimes you can feel the hope sometimes you can feel the desperation sometimes you cringe because it just seems so delusional artistically but um you know I have gone through great many number of papers these past months doing during this process and I gotta tell you it’s not easy but here I really AM on Boxing Day three months later and I’m still going through the papers and it still hurts to read all of it and yeah it’s incredibly difficult but it has to be done and processed and you know people do have to move on and jackie’s note to me today Boxing Day again that is was incredible because I suddenly felt like if I want to join a family for a holiday next time maybe I could but we shall see what we shall see I I definitely don’t like being on the outs with folks that’s for sure hum and far more tell the cat sensibilities then probably give me credit for her and I don’t think they know how much they hurt my feelings so that is what it is will be stronger because of it.

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Virgo 27° (September 18)

Day Thirty Six E.D.A.N.O.W.W. Clams, Fried Chicken, Gravy, Bisquit, Mac n Cheese, Spinach What the fuck am I eating. It’s still Boxing Day y’all and I am retrofitting thiese Blague entries. I won’t say I’ve been having fun necessarily however it is proving quite fruitful to have gone through and reacquainted myself with poems for starters um but also to revisit certain writing papers even the clutter and kind of finding a place to put it the desire destination being the garbage I came across this one piece of paper that I think is it’s like this giant piece of paper that’s supposed to probably talk about all my different joke bits and apparently I joke bits center up on yacht rock the Provincetown to Wellfleet Jewish eye candy joke the vacancy no joke the list of things that you have to do in the course of a day that would take up your entire day like oil pulling something about Olivia de haviland so I have no idea what that means and then aptronym’s and now I can throw this piece of paper right and move on to the next one which I can’t even begin to read let me turn on a light hang on The point being I’m also streamlining my existence here I think I’m going to open a bottle of wine and finish up this entire project by midnight and be on track for tomorrow as best as I can be and should be catching up today should be catching up to where I left off on the website so that can sort of be fixed up and we could start making some other moves I mean the whole thing is that like I make a list of things that I could speak into this and then when I get here often like I just have to dredge things up from nowhere and it doesn’t make for a very good reading which is the argument to write everyday so that you don’t get into situations like this OK so we’ve got this piece of paper in front of me I’ve got my magnifying glass but does it say Fashion Week we don’t need that that I hold best list of names whose header danillo otherwise but who’s header bizarre Yep just looking at all this yeah this is just the To Do List looks like from 2009 and somebody called Seth doing the logo show 2009 I have no idea what that means but it would have something to do with already doing starsky and Cox shows which remember started in 2005 and predate any chislic festival work or anything like that So what do we next have to put under the micro Oh yeah so this for some reason is a piece of paper white lined composition paper on its side um I’m just going to read it gutting audacity presence honesty fearlessness now March money placed to state taxes place to live OK need ah something up and running then there’s a picture of a son 2007 to 2011 setting up brick and mortar OK so I guess this is some sort of talk that I thought I needed at one point alright let’s see what’s next this one says Cocteau Twins music Zodiac watches Scorpio house desire the individual if the sun refused to shine in quotes from website to advertise me for men’s magazines that’s for sure theater or Broadway movie quote style I can something you’re relieved NYC neighborhoods character of fiction dinner party magic moment then there’s the word eating the word sport sent the words sport sent the name looks like Laura and then my signature so that’s a fun one oh wait there’s another slide hang on Chelsea clip Vanessa Leslie James Kelly ripa the view yeah well sure OK that’s enough of that and that’s probably enough for this entry to be honest I mean why push it right or I’ll just read you one more and then you can go your merry way this is like right don’t forget we have a hole one with the cosmos hum prepare multi pronged plans events lectures PR decide on parties gatherings Tucker what we are doing tonight decide what we are doing tonight Oh my gosh Michelle Barack why would I have that autumn author Arthur author ghost and Mrs Muir that’s exciting yes we have the one with the cosmos book proposal deck as well so let’s not forget that we can have a lot of fun in many different ways I just want to get this beautiful book in the can, 

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Virgo 26° (September 17)

Day Thirty Five E.D.A.N.O.W.W. Clams, Rainbow Roll. Looking back no wonder I’m not at least thirtly lbs overweight. I had no idea that I could gain this much in so little time but there you have it. The gluttony is real people the gluttony is real. What can I say about all these days except what I remember most about the blur itself. I know that I start packing up one room at a time, for the most part, starting with the upstairs. I know I make regular trips to the dump. I know I never really sit outside. I know it’s not my birthday that it’s actually hers tomorrow from the point where I’m writing came up on this funny little thing that I would love to do something with I have no idea it’s little sketch of me with my hand on my head on my hand says acting writing editing producing and clamming couldn’t possibly but maybe it does this might be from the pea town days I think so anyway doesn’t really matter I might however cut it out and keep it in my wallet just for fun for awhile then I come up on another piece of paper on which it looks like it just says charlies what do you means that another piece of paper something local and regional New England again writer editor producer yeah acting writing editing producing clamming this is like me having some kind of local experience I think and I’m looking at a list of things that had to do with starsky and Cox Joe’s pub performance and now I’m looking at something Manhattan dinner place something 2012 OK rent and mortgage travel shrink small national mood makeup I have no idea what this says um but I think I’m in some kind of zone and I don’t know if the pictures are funny I need to take photographs of the user I think because I don’t really understand this way I can Chuck them away and still delete these later if I want to and same with this guy and now I can throw these papers away now I’ve come across this other thing right this was all about Harper Collins so I don’t know what they wanted from me I think for our date time to be shipped I’m just going to throw it all away because doesn’t make any sense really here’s another piece of paper says online new media presence and website bring something in need full screen version of Chelsea lately that’s really going back something else social plans year round client list so fully blank paper Valentine’s Day event cool outreach yeah I mean there’s still something very valid about these some of this stuff which I will keep and OK this is something to do with output for the festival that’s funny I could probably read this to you but maybe I’ll wait till tomorrow because I’m getting a lot down here as it is something that says Mary Mary what is right about it all new fabulous book deal about to happen we do not have to make any we do not have to move anywhere now we have two show dates for Joe’s pub now we have Mary Mary something that we have Mary Mary something to write Mary Mary I guess that was going to be a show yeah I don’t need to do that to myself please confirm good boot papers Pam still remain intact my family if we will for some time you don’t even know what that means I’m talking about the fact that I don’t waste paper maybe that’s how I balance out overindulging in restaurants food and wine so back to brass tacks here yeah this so I have a ton of papers that I would all categorized as me the musings so I think what we can do is have a whole kind of musings section these next couple of days and that should do it for me today 

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Virgo 25° (September 16)

Day Thirty Four E.D.A.N.O.W.W. Oysters, Salmon w/ Udon. Looking back I really knew how to eat well I suppose. So I’m hard pressed to know exactly what it is to do with this juncture because um I’m now let’s see 24 back locked blogs into this catchup process of 100 11 or so needing to be filled in and I just spent the last couple days finding old poetry in folders which had never made it onto a computer at least not a modern computer maybe in SC30 back in the early 90s but now I’m needing to pivot and find other forms of material which I’m going to do once I finish writing this particular one once again to reiterate it’s Boxing Day December 26th 2021 and here I am writing September 16th entry which is fine because I was traumatized back then into believing that anything I was writing about was going to be used against me because ***** lawyer is such a bully and we will see evidence of that more and more as time unfolds um I want to sort of honor the time in which I’m writing this I mean I’m going to Max shack every night still trying to um give myself some semblance of a social life which isn’t real because I’m just mainly talking to bartenders but a few other guests regulars have emerged with whom I’ve formed some bonds and um there is a lot of good that will come out of all that we can’t quite quantify it as of yet but and added to that I have had some good times with Dave and Allison and had Billy and Tim over for dinner once but other than that it’s just me alone all day long coming through heart wrenching memories boxes filled forever to the brim and at this side of it I can’t even believe I survived it I can’t believe I’m alive without parents or siblings to speak of or any kind of family whatsoever that I’m here crystal alone in this existential floating spaceship by suppose but as they say in the funny papers it is what it is it’s clear to me that I’m divorcing more than one person I’m divorcing a whole slew of people whole families whole friendships that have been big part of my life for a very long time and she doesn’t really care she wants to pretend that all my so called verbal abuse was all about me being repressed and it wasn’t it was about the fact that she doesn’t ******* do anything and here now on the other side of it I realized God how right I was like she really doesn’t function she doesn’t do anything but move papers around and you know even the minutes that I’ve given her she can’t still can’t manage to like check one thing off a list so I’m going to back off continue to represent continue to do all the heavy lifting and I think at this point I have to turn a major corner and start feeling good about me and who I am and what I do and what I’m capable of and the friendships I can forge and I’d like to be around very smart people and very kind people I don’t feel like pretending anymore with the posers of the world and the lucky ones who got struck by lightning just as it was such a strange phenomenon to know people like that it’s even stranger to lose them in a divorce but I will write about all these things one day and everything will be made clear I just need a running start and I don’t know if I’ll get that if I weigh myself down with too much expense or responsibility you know basically you know I’m dealing with about less than 13,000 dollar a year rental expense which is nothing and if I could do this for two years well building back my resources then perhaps there’ll be some hope I would love to being able to get this book sold and yet I don’t know if I have much faith in the process as it has proven to unfold it’s been kind of good and bad being in Provincetown for the last two months I’ve definitely had some moments I’m not proud of but also I feel like there’s also been a lot of repair so we shall see what we shall see and will continue to reach out to friends and I’m not judging do the Christmas thing so I think I’ll do the New Year’s resolution rounds a little bit more carefully alright well that’s enough for me for today have a great time and see you tomorrow 

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Virgo 24° (September 15)

Day Thirty Three E.D.A.N.O.W.W. Clams, Pork Chop, which was delicious. Funny how the people at Mac’s would have been such a huge part of my daily existence but now, writing this on Boxing Day, I can barely remember the plot of those very difficult months. Who would have thought it would have taken me until the middle of December before we would have substantive conversation. And even so, not really. There is already back tracking I fear. I came upon a sort of abstract for what would then have been my one man show. The paper starts with production credit. The word Silent over the word Wil with one L. “presents” Liam Leone I suppose was still the name I was going by and the show itself, a terrible title, was called “Struggle” billed as a “solo performance, esteemed guests.” Did I even know any esteemed guests back then—I suppose I did.The piece of paper abstract goes on to say the following: About my nightmare hard days as a celebrated fashion model and wouldn’t you just want to shoot me Polaroid and light meter me reload and focus your lens and shoot me make me bend down cut me something about maybe show more of the stripe pretend to be his wife don’t know what that means and shoot me make me bentown already said that pucker me and shoot me I was only 14 when they put make up between when they thought me to learn and fed me just lean cuisine after something play I was ****** and still my book really sucked I was down on my luck I got lost in a catalog wearing towels with hasbeens then a little voice inside me said and then it actually ends there if you can believe it or not so there’s no reason to go on there’s no reason to save these papers they are relegated to memory from now on I have the hard copy of all my original poems that’s going to have to be good enough for me I’m going to have to move on into other texts after I finish this blog and the next one I’ll have eight more to do this evening and four hours in which to do it so that should be fine more than enough time it is what it is as they say and I’d like to go back and find my earliest stuff I do want to keep going through papers and throwing things away I’m going to spend the whole restive this year doing things like that I suppose but it is the healthiest means of purgation if that’s a word I don’t know what to say anymore I’m down on my luck come down on my mood I’m just down down down down down down down I want to pick myself up this week I want to get my diet and health in order I’m going to have to postpone doctor’s appointments yet one more time I need that dry January feeling I need to lose this giant gut that’s bad building up we need to take walks every day no matter what get up and out there’s no excuse why not I have a lot of resource at my fingertips I can go and stay in England if I want to not that I do I think I’d sooner fly direct Paris and back I need to get in touch with Susie about having somewhere but my instinct is still the same too find a place that costs next to nothing that I can own and put all my stuff and make it small and cute and that can be anywhere in a way doesn’t have to be far away I mean maybe I go just off Cape or something like that and figure it out from there something along those lines anyway I probably have said enough today and so I’ll bow out but I think I’ll keep doing this dictating thing ’cause it’s a way easier method of getting lots of words down on paper so called then sitting here typing and thinking and doing the whole writing process garbage nobody needs that and nobody requires that for me and nobody needs anything even near perfect right now so I’m just going to do what I have to do without second guessing it and the rest of the planet will have to adjust to my orbit 

To view the original Sabian Symbol themed 2015 Cosmic Blague corresponding to this day: Flashback! The degree point of the Sabian Symbol may at times be one degree higher than the one listed here. The Blague portrays the starting degree of for this day ( 0°,  for instance), as I typically post in the morning, while the Sabian number corresponds to the end point (1°) of that same 0°-1° period. 

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