Leo 20° (August 12)

Up. Back to Provincetown. Renew P.O. Box—bumped into R.S., we are having dinner next week— drop all the Perry’s bag on their stoop, get some more car product and go to Ruthie’s for a donation and in search of blue polo shirts. Came up pretty short, hit AM Thrift too. Salad with Miso Tahini dressing, shaving, getting sun. Left a message for S. I have a lot of ground to cover. I will do a night of work and dinner will be some mussels and asparagus. I have a false and cozy hope that I am onto something and I’m not. It will be as short lived, really, as this day. I know I will have to revisit this day and that when I am finally caught up to a Monday morning, I will be in a better place. I have yet to send pictures or videos of the rooms to S., but I will do so. I don’t know why I have to be threatened and also meant to snap-to at a moment’s notice when it is weeks and weeks that we receive no information back. The good news is I will get over the hump of being able to do certain things. And that might make me a bit marketable. Anyway, back to the work:

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Leo 19° (August 11)

Provincetown P.O. and bank where I was stopped by the manager about precious metals. Off to Wellfleet post where there will be another Chase bank letter. Then to Orleans, my first pizza slices of the year, CVS and a food shop, stocking up on Pellegrino. Back home in time for lawyer talk. Scan all the financials. Had conversation with Doug on the way to Ptown and got his brain back around the Wellfleet space and that was part of the convo with Mike. Took some videos of the house. Doing inventory and starting to make some headway me thinks. Stayed up too late and will not have enough sleep for first day today. First day or what you might ask? Too bad I’m not going to tell you. Anyway (my most overused word) I must keep plugging away if I’m to make this work. Being tortured by a lawyer just for airing my own feelings about my own life. Threats are not going to work on me so mind how you go. Some more astrological thoughts as I get this party re-started:

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Leo 18° (August 10)

Stayed in today tried to make things happen. Had some bacon and egg with cheese that ruined my sautée pan. Decided to bike into town for oysters and halibut ceviche and Rachel had her hair and face all done up. Sat next to Declan who works for Tony P. Had long chat with Brian K starting on my walk home. Spoke to him the entire time I pushed my bike across bridge through woods and all the way home. It was helpful to speak with him actually. I feel things are starting to shake out a bit which gives me hope. Spoke to Matty as well and then apparently he saw me on my bike. The pieces may be starting to fall into place although I dare say I’m not totally convinced. I’m feeling like perhaps the prospective place to live isn’t firmly in my grasp. The Ptown women meanwhile have got to be kdding asking what they are asking for what really is a dump, I’m sorry. There is no two ways about it. And talking about zero charm. Good lord. Anyway I don’t really want to have a back up but I will keep in touch with Billy in any case. I had to let the other thing go. Not for any other reason but that it was a thousand dollars overpriced and I need to get my mind around what I really want. And what I really want is to live in Paris in the winter which I’m hoping I can do. I need to take a year off and reinvent myself first. Going through all my writing and so forth. We have been famous in various countries. It looks like it’s snowing my eyesight is obviously shot. Today I was concerned I saw a ghost wizz by but it was probably just the congregate floaters in my eyes. I don’t want to want to think beyond a great deal right now, so I will end it where I began it and you can go fudge yourself. That year we stayed near Monge and never got any sleep at all in that tiny but very cool apartment. 

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Leo 17° (August 9)

This was the night I blackened salmon with noodles in a miso broth. I really didn’t eat much but a piece of toast all day. I feel like toast myself to be honest. The house is haunting me for sure and this week is yet the most pivotal. I am deep into lawyerland, and still scratching my head about that letter the other side sent. Sides. I don’t want sides. I want the same side. The obvious friends have never reached out. And the ones that did have ceased doing so. It’s all fine. I’m running around all week, like a pinball in a machine. I just want to start taking larger bites. I am definitely meeting people just by investing in my dinners out. I think I need to up the search for some back up places to live. I have been doing video inventories of the house, shopping cooking and cleaning of course, and starting to get my brain around what really needs to happen here. I will definitely at some point work on my resume and try to get things like that cooking. I think I have some clever ideas of what might be what. I can’t articulate them now. I really do need to start writing things down again, but it is just so hard. I will keep pressing on. I really don’t have much choice. But it will all be revealed and I don’t think I have to worry. I will learn that the work I have on my plate which is so physical is going to require my doing a 30-60 day Bikram type regimen. Otherwise my body won’t be able to deal with all that’s’ required to do. I will be putting myself into pretty strenuous work as the days tick by and this is as it should be really. Still one can only do what one can do. I am looking very much forward to having this next phase of life unfold—that will be more than just an expression as we move into next days. The Blague and the book must again fuse into one and on that note:

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Leo 17° (August 9)

This was the night I blackened salmon with noodles in a miso broth. I really didn’t eat much but a piece of toast all day. I feel like toast myself to be honest. The house is haunting me for sure and this week is yet the most pivotal. I am deep into lawyerland, and still scratching my head about that letter the other side sent. Sides. I don’t want sides. I want the same side. The obvious friends have never reached out. And the ones that did have ceased doing so. It’s all fine. I’m running around all week, like a pinball in a machine. I just want to start taking larger bites. I am definitely meeting people just by investing in my dinners out. I think I need to up the search for some back up places to live. I have been doing video inventories of the house, shopping cooking and cleaning of course, and starting to get my brain around what really needs to happen here. I will definitely at some point work on my resume and try to get things like that cooking. I think I have some clever ideas of what might be what. I can’t articulate them now. I really do need to start writing things down again, but it is just so hard. I will keep pressing on. I really don’t have much choice. But it will all be revealed and I don’t think I have to worry. I will learn that the work I have on my plate which is so physical is going to require my doing a 30-60 day Bikram type regimen. Otherwise my body won’t be able to deal with all that’s’ required to do. I will be putting myself into pretty strenuous work as the days tick by and this is as it should be really. Still one can only do what one can do. I am looking very much forward to having this next phase of life unfold—that will be more than just an expression as we move into next days. The Blague and the book must again fuse into one and on that note:

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Leo 16° (August 8)

Very Sunday today. Dinner will be oysters followed by scallops and jasmine rice and broccolini. I went to see the place today actually and was pleasantly surprised. Don’t get me wrong it is a dive but not so terrible as all that. I keep dreaming of Ireland and crying in my sleep. Really I’m still in a place where I really don’t know what to do. But I also think that might be coming okay. I don’t know. I really am suffering quite a bit. (Ya think?) I have had so many high school friends reach out and they really are the best. That and the friends I made on my own over the years. I don’t want to fail this evening. I do realize I can’t manufacture thoughts. I am just feeling. Not so far off really. And I’m used to going to bed, now at four in the morning. Imagine sleeping till noon. That would be amazing. If I end up doing what needs doing then that will be how it has to be. I have already learned I really don’t drink coffee—isn’t that weird. Me. I don’t drink coffee. I have been making myself a double decaf every morning just because. The tenor of the house is shifting. It is becoming more bachelor-ish in the sense that there is no more ritual. Everytthing is in motion. The dishes, the shopping, the cooking, the laundry, not to mention the packing and the putting together of some kind of life plan. I have been so wiped out, bedridden by the trauma, and alone. But I have had to kick into survivor mode or else. Yeah, or else. Yeah, or else. It will be uber fantastic. . I may be forgetting the most compelling part of all this. I believe that it was important to talk to Chris about it all. And the winter rental in Ptown really is a sad place and I couldn’t for a moment imagine myself there. On to the work at hand:

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Leo 15° (August 7)

Woke up from dream I went to N and got to play for awhile with G, who was like 5. You and I were meeting for lunch but I forgot to get the name and address you left off my voicemail. So Nancy called you and handed the phone to me. I was drinking a glass of milk. You said the name of the restaurant was “Career Suicide” but you said “suicide was two words”; it was a famous woman chef who ran it and it was somewhere in Boston or Cape Cod. Then the dream switched and I was in a group therapy session and Nancy had accompanied me. For a moment you were there speaking German to the therapist, but then you weren’t there. When it came time to speak I started crying saying “I wanted to be best friends and work on our businesses together.” i was hysterical and Nancy started rubbing my back. I woke up crying my eyes out and having a panic attack. Yesterday’s threatening letter from your lawyer’s office was very traumatic on top of weeks of trauma. Anyway, going to get right into the work:

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Leo 14° (August 6)

I truly feel like I’m having a nervous breakdown: I am doing everything I can to get and better, to go the uncontested route, to be accommodating and to communicate. What I get in return is radio silence, attempts to take away my businesses, money taken out of joint accounts, mailboxes being shut down, safety deposit box emptied, zero word on what possessions are being claimed (which is disabling me from selling or otherwise ridding this nine room house of contents that must go or even getting an estimate from movers), and now accusations and threats from lawyers claiming I’ve threatened to throw our possessions away, i.e. the very opposite of what I’ve been saying. Also, I’m accused of slander by speaking my mind on the subject on social media, (meaning on Facebook?) and airing my true feelings of despair and loneliness? Truth isn’t slander. I am slowly losing my mind. Anyway, I will work with Brad today on getting a financial statement together as well and then head to do even more banking and a little bit of shopping. I do keep making soups then throwing them away. It’s impossible to cook for yourself. And when your whole day centered around the menu and what kind of meal you would share together it really is impossible to do it for oneself. That’s why last night was good for the soul. It would be nice to be invited places actually but that hasn’t much happened. I don’t mind being avoided. Oh that’s a lie. The pain of the primary loss is only compounded by the loss of friends or their dwindling interest. I’m beginning to feel for sure that my one friend who was there for me was really something of a double agent. He sent to me a text meant for her not for me. It wasn’t anything earth shattering but I recognized that certain tone. It doesn’t much matter nothing really does. My timed writing isn’t going that great. I’m going to find some inspiration in the pantry. I found more than I needed but that’s okay I’m going to do my best to make this shite happen. I might even walk into town today as a treat. More astrological thoughts:

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Leo 13° (August 5)

I have Tim and Billy coming for dinner. I will make linguine clam sauce. I will start the day in Provincetown where no checks have arrived. And make my way down to Eastham to grab some wine and sparkling water and some linguine at Mac’s before heading into Wellfleet town for the littlenecks and what product I need. I called Mike’s friend about the Wellfleet place and it turns out I know the owner. I am trying fairly hard to keep this ball in play and feel fairly confident I can do it. Billy and I were talking about when we first met which dovetails with the larger conversation. He is going to help me with finding a place to land as well. I have to start over with the move I think and be way more brutal in the process of throwing things away. Maybe it will be easier now. I now drink decaf. Who am I? It is so weird to have another couple for dinner I must say. It’s not necessarily better that’s for sure. Tim and Billy are so different and yet not in conflict. In many ways I see myself in Billy, being a Billy myself. He is truly funny as is Tim who takes more the straight man role when they are together. I mean that in a comic, not a sexual sense. I have got to get back into the swing of writing or else this is never going to happen… I have put a whole list of first round questions out to the so-called other side and not getting anything back. Realize, after the elipse, I am writing the remainder of this five days later, and I have about six entries to finish up. They don’t have to be perfect. Nothing these days needs to be perfect. I’m going to do a timed writing for the next two hours and just say whatever needs saying. And then later I will fill in with some astrological stuff. There is much on my plate. I will get financials sent me and will do my best to power through all that. I have to just make this work. Okay on to some more astrological thoughts:

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Leo 12° (August 4)

I will have dinner tonight at with Brad at Mac’s. Mike P. will be there and he will say something about an apartment in his building which I sorely would love. I will check it out later in the week and yet it will be a slog, even so. I cannot believe what I’m dealing with let alone who. I am getting some housework done and each time I pass through a room I streamline all that much more. Still there is so much actually stuff I don’t know how or where it goes. I feel so awful. I just feel like everything has been the same the whole time and pretty hunk dory for the most part. So much time spent doing this or that endeavor, the endless chats, it all added up to failure for which I take the fall. And there are no witnesses so there you go. I just still can’t believe it’s over just like that. I was so invested in everything we accomplished and were doing and mostly in the love we shared. I guess it wasn’t as mutual lately as I thought. I know it is logical to say that I’m the one who demonstrated uncaring and there is definite truth in that; it’s just that I had so completely compartmentalized everything to the point it all felt perfectly normal. It was the way it has always been and it was largely just virtual. And who is to say it didn’t. feel normal I mean. Of all the many, many people I’ve spoken to in my same boat, 99.9% of them don’t have super sleuths and so they carry on in their bliss having the best of both worlds. It is probably too much to ask and yet so many do and still live in their bond until death do them part. I thought that would be me. It now won’t be. But the amount of loss is extreme. Every time I open a box it is of the Pandora kind filled with letters and photos from a thousand years together. I just have to shut it and take to my bed and bawl. So much for spending the day packing up—I need nerves of steel to do this. Speaking of nerves I need to be sure that I can do the tiny work of carrying trays and glasses if I’m to pull this off. Oh lord, how did I get in this position. And will I have the fortitude to not put myself in danger driving those roads and bridges. This will have to be enough of that for today. I will do some thinking on the Virgo man: TK

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