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So Outta Here

June 30, 2019 / Quinn Cox / 0 Comments

Cancer 8° (June 28)

We have an old client today whom we’re gifting a session and I’m really looking forward to that. I am really missing that kind of interaction and look very much forward to getting the consultancy back into full swing. S. is headed out to her class—I wish I had a better routine (or any one at all) like she does. I bought a full-length mirror to start doing Bikram at home but you don’t see that happening do you? And with her out of town earlier this week I basically lived on beer and what “meals” I could make from things lurking in the fridge (while taking myself out for oysters and chowder, riding my bike so I could have some beers out, too, and not have to get behind the wheel. Can’t do that! Anyway I am going to start in on getting every last bit of material to our graphic department and prepare myself for meeting Provincetown on Monday. The idea was to get through all that in one day, today, so to have the weekend to focus on the proposal which isn’t exactly going to happen. The way I see it is I will be working on the proposal while drafting ideas for the sample all at the same time. This way, even while I’m away (for nearly a month) I can just make the creative writing my focus while monitoring and tweaking the festival stuff. I am busting out a new character this year who will be handling the website and all the social media. Her name is Margie Ella Jackett, the surname being quite an old and storied one in the Town of P. I need to remind S. that this weekend is the Portugese Festival and the Blessing of the Fleet and she’ll need to avoid that like the plague-o-rini. Turned out she did have plans for P. but moved them to Monday.

Meanwhile I really am doing the best I can do and I must keep looking on the bright half empty side. It’s still two weeks before I have to interact with anybody so I’m going to let myself magically debloat. Which means I can’t get stressed because it’s just too easy to pop open a Devil’s Purse (made right here in Cape Cod) and initiate a forced check-out. The personal stress of doing all I’m doing in this overal climate of chaos and disaster. I really worry that people arent’ taking things as seriously as they should. I watched both debates but I have to say that the candidates seem to be missing the point terribly. They are bantering with each other as if this is politics as usual and it fucking isn’t. Trump is hanging out with Putin making jokes about how we have fake news but that’s not Putin’s problem (no because he kills journalists); and this is exactly the position Trump wishes he was in. He will meet with L’il Kim too. I mean, he is like that new weirdo kid who moves to town and ends up becoming friends with the existing bullies sitting in the back row drawing pictures of guns and tanks while making little bombing noises. He is the class problem. And we have to watch his bimbo daughter accompanying him? We have to pay to fly her around the world to make deals with countries who murder anybody who gets in their way. I want them all to extinguish I really do. I even find myself choosing words carefully as if afraid that my expression will come back to haunt me. Stranger thins have happened. The point is: Stranger things are happening and nobody seems to realize that the hacking might be so extreme this time around. And that the Supreme Court didn’t take up the gerimandering thing. It’s all the same issue. It makes me long for Canada.

And now if you’ll excuse me I’m going to look at Cape Breton real estate porn. You think I’m kidding? Do you know how much searches of that sort surged when Uncle Fester won the White House? 77% or some such. For reals.

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Six Degrees Of

June 30, 2019 / Quinn Cox / 0 Comments

Cancer 7° (June 27)

I must remind myself to also update the sponsors on the website. And to send thank you to Christina. I will first get Jesse everything he needs and create the invoice.Then I will move to sponsors and sparklers. I need to send the “names poster” to the printer for a test. I will go to pick up la S at the ferry in Provincetown and we will come directly back home for a hot minute before we head to lunch at our favorite Lower Cape spot Sunbird (I had fish tacos and S had some kinda salad of course). There needs to be a rewrite about us having invented the AF with the support of close friends who also happen to have been performers I think that might be the ticket on that score: more ownership. I don’t feel as if my original board is truly on it. Some things I have to write today:

Following up on my Spahhhkler note I sent last month. Working more by email than the usual FB shout-outs this year as I find many people don’t much use the FB anymore (which is a very good thing, considering). We would love to have your return support and to be able to offer you PAIRS of tickets to all our shows at our special half-price Sparkler rate and PLEASE SAVE THE DATE: Monday, September 9 for our Opening Eve Repast at Baie Bar Resto where Chef Raina Stefani will be working her usual magic with some accompanying organic-y libations! For those of you who aren’t in town during festival, we will gift your Sparklership to seniors or students or others who might otherwise want to see our shows and would appreciate the half price tix!

Our roster this year are mainly new, emerging talent or those who aren’t as fame-ish as some of our original performers have become over the nine years. So we face some challenges at the box office on that score—all the more reason to hit the notion home that: Afterglow has always brought great artists and acts you’ve probably never heard of so audience must trust the curation. I think our track record has been quite stellar in regard to our eye for talent. But we are relying on the non-profit support that much more this year. And remember we are a 501 (c) (3) charitable arts organization so you can write off your donations to the full extent of the law. We try to give a lot of bang for your bucks!

That should be fairly easy to tailor to Sparklers too. I am juggling a lot a lot. The rest of the day was pretty fun we just got into bed and caught up on a whole lot of television which is our total ritual when reuniting after a long time away; and today was a bit exhausting in that we had to go to lawyers to do our wills which is something nobody wants to do but has to do. It was good to make a few pitstops along the way but we basically just broke out the popcorn and watched till we dropped. Big Little Lies has become a total soap opera but it’s so much fun to watch Meryl overact; and the new City on the Hill is fairly excellent and the first time I really liked Kevin Bacon. The actor who plays the younger of the two hoodlum brothers is also quite remarkable. I’m going to look up their names now as I sign off. I do promise to get more create or astrological or both in the coming weeks as this platform will be being used to launch some work needing drafting in any case. So hang tough.

Not That John Kelly

June 29, 2019 / Quinn Cox / 0 Comments

Cancer 6° (June 26)

The fatigue is now total and I’m giving over today to just cleaning and otherwise getting organized for the big two weeks that remain with three weeks to go before hitting the boat. There is much to do but it will all be done. I need to use this platform today, tomorrow and the next day to get all the wording down I need to move the needle on all the projects that are currently spinning. Not an easy task and yet I’m not going to see myself as backed against any walls. I may be disappointing myself slightly on where I wanted to be when it comes to hitting the road; but even with that I can’t take too hard a line with myself because it just wouldn’t be productive to do that. I know what needs being done and I am surely determined to do it. Exercise is what I need this next fortnight to feel good about myself and surely that is soething I can affect. I can also keep that going on the boat and try to make it as much of a throughline as I can I ‘m going to avoid all the dairy and all the grain and really pound the nutrition which, let’s face it, is what I usually do. Funny to think this time last year I was painting and preparing for visitation from the high school friends something from which I still feel I haven’t fully recovered.

There are many hours in a day and I know I can make this fun for myself. I am surprised that we’ve had no word from the lawyer as regards the accident. It is getting ridiculous. We were rear-ended four years ago and we are still waiting on insurance companies to even depose us. It is such a racket that people who are the victims of such crimes (and it is a crime) are put through the ringer and further victimized. It’s the way this country works. It wants to tear us down. It meaning corporate America who doesn’t give a flying fuck about anybody. The first debates are tonight and I will stay up to watch them. It all seems somehow beside the point I don’t exactly know what I mean by that. I use to get so excited by things like this but after these years with J.T.Barnum in the White House, we feel so hopeless. John Kelly is involved and sits on the board for companies that runs private detention centers. The racism and rape is so deep. I think the Russians have full dossiers on pretty much everyone that has worked in the administration and that is diabolical connective tissue here. I’m sure of it. The father and daughter are drowned. The father was just twenty six and his daughter twenty-three months old. I just can’t believe this is all happening here. Talk about needing gummies. I don’t know what to say. Anyway, I’ve descended into feeling really crappy about all of this. And we definitely want to to try and transcend but, sorry Michelle, but going higher doesn’t seem to be working. We need to start playing hard if not dirty. We need to start punching back this pig.

Wrapping My Brain

June 27, 2019 / Quinn Cox / 0 Comments

Cancer 5° (June 25)

Going to ride my bike into town and grab myself some oysters. It will be fun and I will meet another jeweler. I had chowder too which was delicious. I don’t want to make a big deal of pretty much regressing into a teenager whenever I’m alone but I really just needed to give over to my lazier impulses. I caught up on a bunch of television and I am just going to let it all go today. It will catch up with me in that I really have a lot of compounded projects piling up. I need to think a few things through and get my to-do lists in order. There are so many moving parts right now I could easily just jump into a hole; but I have to get my proverbial poo together and make sure to hit all marks. This, from years of working in fashion, is what we affectionately refer to as “collection time.”

I need to write a list of wht Roman and Renata Need to look out for. I need to put together all the copy for the posters and postcards and get that whole process moving. I need to create an invoice to accompany Jesse’s invoice and get to town on July 1. I will have to go back on July 5 to grab some tee-shirts; I just need a few. I have to order some things from Everlane like in the next couple of days. I need to work through the list of sponsors and sparklers and truly get that moving. So realistically, I will use Friday to get all that needs doing done for the festival before client at 2. Saturday and Sunday will have to be dedicated to the proposal without fail. Monday through Friday has to be focused solely on drafting the sample material. I can take it with me and tweak it all I want while traveling to make it sparkle. I still have a good three weeks to get myself together in terms of rest and diet. I will consider a bit of a TV diet. I’ve been there before and two weeks of focussed attention can really do wonders.

So I must give R+R Jim’s information. I must explain that the trash and recycling this is really crazy. Washed out cans and plastic go in the striped blue/green bag next to the dryer; only dry non-food trash (paper, tissues and the like) can go in the trash under the sink. Any unused food items or bits of vegetable from chopping etc can be put in the clear tupperware container in the fridge but must actually be put in plastic bags and stored in the freezer until we return and can take refuse to the dump. Otherwise, you can take small bits of trash with you and discreetly chuck them in trash cans you pass while driving. We affectinately call this brand of refuse “carbage.” The right window in the kitchen opens but it doesn’t close unless someone pushes it close from outside. You will find fans unplugged under windows around the house feel free to put those fans in but please remove, lock windows and unplug them when you leave.

Fortnight

June 26, 2019 / Quinn Cox / 0 Comments

Cancer 4° (June 24)

How funny. So today we awoke super early so that we could get S. to a 6:30 ferry. I wake typically by 5 every morning anyway so it wasn’t weird for me. We were going to make a stop to drop our used Nespresso pods into a UPS box and then go to the bank for cash then to get S.’s ticket. The UPS box was filled with Nespresso pod bags!! It was so funny. Dropped off La Louie then headed back and here I am. Finishing this leg of the project:

these are the kinds of relationships that provide an off-ramp, a detour from usual dysfunction, flagging her to yeild her symbiotic energy in her lovemaking blech.many Virgo’s don’t settle into relationships until mid-life

a man/lover who doesn’t perceive her as a void he falls into or is swalled by
Sex should be sanctified for the sared harlot (this is her superpower) Tantric in bed
Mercury rule in this earth sign signifies a certain natural and physical intelligence
Digestion, gestation, our desired natural functions which are in themselves complex if not miraculous
It’s the same with sex. It’s about getting the brain out of the way, really, for everyone; and this is something which comes naturally to Virgo, or can trip her up the most, either way it will become a theme in her life. Sometimes we are the personification of some form of impurity we should otherwise seek to remove from the situation. Virgo’s work in life is to examine her behavior and to try and to decifer what is natural and what is conditioning such that she might develop a belief system based on wht seems, comes naturally to her in her best thoughts and deeds. ARE WE SOMEHOW SEPARATE FROM NATURE? THE ENERGY OF VIRGO OFFERS A RESOUNDING NO
At her best she embodies the notion that nature runs its course, that like the physical body the self, too, (can) know(s) what to do. Virgo’s very body can become a means of transcendence, in sex certainly, but also in other forms of physical expression, athletics, movement, yogini, dance, performance, as an aerialist or even clowning. There is a devotional aspect to performing any kind of physical feat, is there not? At that is at the core of the Virgo experience: to do, well, practically everything, as if it were devotional, a ceremony, a word that comes from the Roman name for Demeter, Ceres (who also gives us cereal); Demeter is associated with the Eleusian mysteries, a suspected series of hermetic (secret) ritual ceremonies. Ritual magic is the performance of physical activities endowed with the power of affecting spiritual, alchemical, change, to thus mold reality toward desired results.

THERE IS MAGIC IN THIS

And sexual magick is something in which Virgo might have especial talent, harnassing the nature within her.

THERE IS MUCH MORE TO HER HERE

This can be kind of cool, really.

This is why self-help RITUALS are so important to the Virgo.

) We will use sex over and over as metaphor.

Sex takes dedicated practice. Which is why one night stands don’t cut it. She needs to work on her routine with a partner.
Size matters, she learns she’s s ex machine. Needs a sturdy fellow, “seasoned driver”
She tires men out. He needs staying power.Staying power could be a good metaphor for her in life as well as in bed.
Her natural intelligence (physical intelligence) will tell herif a guy is into her or not; (and he needn’t already literally be for her to know)

Nowhere do we talk about her being a FAG HAG

matches a man’s every stroke (cringe) upping the stakes by calibrated degrees, heightening without wrecking the flow (breaking the rhythm. He will feel earth move
the more putty in his hands she becomes. it’s like “her yoni itself discerns the way to make his lingham grow without blowing its stack. She may at first seem like someone who just lies there. Again here sex can be a metaphor for how she is in life. We can say, for the purposes of this chapter, or for the purposes of killing two birds with one stone

And really regarding just lying there Virgo’s seem to have it easy because people do seem to take care of them. It’s a fine line between caregiver and co-dependent. But they always get their apartments and so forth bought for them, typically by their parents. They are very dependent on parents to set them up in environments where most others have had to make their own way. This makes them seem in some ways pampered and privileged. They never seem to have to hold down a job just to make money. They are cut some slack, given enough support, to take their (signature slow) time to make their way and ultimately their mark. As in sex, rushing is out of the question. We are back to those “grounded birds” THEY LIVE IN A WORLD WITHOUT COMPETITION .

Virgo woman is all about process (this needs to be said sooner) her whole life is processing and enjoying to process, so why wouldn’t she seek out other like minds instead of surrounding herself with those who are disabled on that score. It’s like she goes for those Hephaestean types. Virgos stick together
Sexually her vag involuntarily squeezes. ultimately dispels notion she’s sluggish in sack

WE NEVER ONCE SAID THAT VULNERABILTIY IS HER STRENGTH??

I wish we could call her the vagina. OMG Kristen Johnstons character? was she Alotta Vagina?

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Sidebar Turn Ons (Straight) should be mined for metaphor. High power creatives, rockers, painters. I mean they are really starfuckers. OMG also Nina West inherited a house. These people don’t have to do fuck all.

Sex does become ritual experience too of course, including some bells and whistles. She does like her toys. The vacuuming metaphor. Not multiorgasmic but the one is seismic (spelling) Dripping wax. Leather the whole nine. Stoned sex. Mother Jugs and speed. Get stoned!!!!!

Least gay of female signs. We get into this whole thing of dropping her servile thing. I feel we knew a lesbian Virgo and she was no Alice B. Tolkas

This Is Tomorrow

June 22, 2019 / Quinn Cox / 0 Comments

Cancer 3° (June 23)

I had the weirdest fever dream that i had this pimple or cysty thing under my arm that wouldn’t sort of pop, like a boily sit that never comes to a head, and it was related to why my arm hurts all the time and finally I decided I’m extracting whatever’s in there and this teeny tiny batterie, like a computer chip, came out; and my first thought was has the battery been in there leaking and is that what all this pain is about. As I’m typing this I’m realizing that it probably relates to a fearful suspicion about the silicone thingy in my chin, (my parent’s decision I really didn’t know about prior to reparations for an accident I was in whereby I was hit by a schoolbus in a no-top, roll-top jeep which flipped completely over). Anyway, it was such a creepy dream and I just now remembered it’s what woke me up, actually, at 4am. and here I am still awake. I don’t feel I’ve done nothing and in fact it should only take me another three hours to get through six pages, which means 12 pages in six hours, which means I could conceivably deconstruct a chapter in two days which would equal forty eight days total. But if I mapped out, say, eight days a month to do two four gender signs that would only take six months. Meaning that, starting in August, through January, I would have all these chapters laid out which would be amazing. I could start with Libra and go back around. This wouldn’t be so tough, really, I would just get into a rhythm and anyway it’s a lot of Blague written in the process. I like the idea of it. Anyway I’m lost in drag queen names suddenly. And though

it drives me crazy when you see someone’s seen your message but they haven’t responded to it I need to let that shit go. I’m actually really grateful I must say and I gots to cut folks a break. It’s a busy day for every body anyway.
Mimicking bordering on body snatching

A mozaic is a positive thing**she takes in their beneficial qualities, influences. Am going to liken this mechanism to the digestion angle, taking in good, discarding bad, wheat from chaff etc

Incorporating into self, appropriated from others and sometimes inappropriately. Rizo!
Just as she conforms to what men want, she likewise assumes the quality of women

haven’t I said this four hundred times already? Talk about needing what’s “next”, what’s new! Jesus.

Empty vessel becomes a vacuum sucking up to people in every sense of word
Her wake is strewn with women “females whose identities she had assumed” then, as a result discarded. Everyone she meets becomes a small portion of her. True for everybody but…Mother Earth will Swallow You!!
Spits women out but churns, again another crucible for change, the men into instruments of positive change and nourishment for the world at large. Makes them more productive for sure. We can make this about people not men or women. We can say that some people she chews up and spits out and some become her steady diet.
She brings health to situations shenurses financial and all kinds of health. Meanwhile she’s milking it. Patronage is one of her superpowers, not least when she aims it at herself. While she does brings out the best in people, removing impurities. extracting goodness. What is purity but the removal of impurity. She can also make or break. In even the most petty ways the unevolved Virgo might seek to undo another’s reputation. The sixth sign house association with hexes. Virgo might have that power while Libra, the white witch, is more the lightworker.
The ultra-irony being that, when it comes to her most personal relationships, the only kinds that make her truly happy are those where she isn’t playing this role, needing to “blend or fold so fully” in his/her/their life.
symbiosis to be saved, in love relationships, for the purely sexual level, but also, not actually paradoxcially, for the purely spiritual elements of the bond; remember these do go hand in hand for her.
And still she may go for tough guys bikers, rough edges, tortured artists, unwashed heroes. If she does, though, she should know it for what it is; her pain comes from wanting and trying to change these characters, a notoriously stubborn lot. Wendy again.

So the perfect mate is a composition, a collage who takes this in-the-rough approach to life but needs none of and indeed rejects her tweaking.

Crickets

June 22, 2019 / Quinn Cox / 0 Comments

Cancer 2° (June 22)

Time to get the old shite really together now; even with this week ahead I cannot afford to make any mistakes. Yesterday was kind of okay. I’m not a big fan of last minute panic or drama. I bought a whole bunch of stuff I didn’t need last minute which was kind of a waste. I really don’t need eleven bottles of Prosecco by any stretch of the imagination. And even when I mention these sorts of things they are returned with blank stares. I’m in that kind of head where I feel like everybody is fucking nuts (which I suppose means I am.) Is it me or is everybody ignoring the fact that we are on the brink of war? Are we so desensitized now as human beings that we don’t even recognize facts like this? Anyway nobody really turned out for us in great number yesterday but those that did were very supportive. It’s the way of all the world I guess now. I learned that the AMP gallery is closing for the same reason everything closes: greed. I also learned that Varla Jean is retiring which may or may not have anything to do with the Art House and its status. Lea Delaria’s club officially opened which is great—we dropped her off a break-a-leg present of a Gemini tee. I hope that place does well. The lesbians are definitely sick and tired of the privileged gay white men in town—this is probably the loudest town theme this year.

Anyway I’m back at it with my Virgo notes today:

Sidebar Key Words also let us peruse these for jumping off points

being diffident she’d never imagine making others feel insignificant
she would take as rjection and internalize it, adding to churning yearning

interesting that we could focus on the fact that she’s always churning yearning.

later she will realize that this is her process of weeding out the boys from men

the wheat from the chaff

she is practically incapable of being objectified she is no mere Libratrinket

though she’d love to be: Libra woman have the opposite problem.

she will learn to be happy that she poses a challenge instead of bemoaning the fact
she wants someone who can get she is both saintly sister and sexy mama
Virgo rerpresents principles of compromise and cohesion, a shift from the discordant to the resolute from dissonance to resonance. we should dig down on that? how does that manifest?
Virgo is all about the alchemical combination of seeming opposites. An alloy of sorts
As fits 6th house of “conformism she is designed to blend and contour to situations
in relationships tends to fill existing holes in the other person’s life—that niche thing.
she thus fills in gaps but also heals lacking or lagging bits. Virgo man deals with his own losses Virgo women dealing with losses of others—in both senses of word
we say attracted to men on basis of their potential but i think that’s more Scorpio rather she actually spearheads what’s missing. She unburdens a man from his obstacles. This chapter is so much about what she does for men.
she consults , points out blocks, implements systems for change. She can’t help it she is driven to nurture a man in his ambitions.
attracted to erudite if not esoteric types—intellectuals, inventors, poets, writers.
she wants him or her!to focus solely on creativty becoming right-hand gal but look out!
Virgo 6th house rule of dependency is it?works both ways and she can become a crutch
thus she may actually enable others bad habits interesting

Sidebar Body Rule rules the abdomen intestines, gallbader. Mercury rules brain, sensory organs reflexes and al physical change, growth and intellecutal development. Mental condisionds can find physical manfestation in body as resut of stress or psychosomatics.

Virgo woman needs to be needed when she’d be better off wanting to be wanted
Relationships take on quality of addiction, focusing on day to day not the nighty night
The eager beaver just becomes a busy one doing all but the wifely duty
Romantic bonds operating like biz partnerships, admistrative concerns over passion
Sally Brown invents situations, imagining a Linus relationship—crush is clueless.
She takes on his traits, tatses, habits becoming feamale doppelganger
A guy wont’ dump her like lopping off his right arm
She supplements need for relationships with friendships, mainly male, others, bosses
She might have the odd one-night stand or rely on electrical devices
A willing Eliza Doolittle, on Pygmalian theme which is Pandor a theme
The fault finding Henry Higgins, comes to depend on rather than love her.

Even Beyonce J Z

No other woman has harder time fully giving herself to other individual and why? she doesn’t feel in full possession of herself often, doing little to own up to own needs.
Not even protean Gemini is more a changdling than she. Empty vessel waiting to be filled.
Devoid of personal boundaries can make her dangerous especially to other women

Spilling The Tees

June 21, 2019 / Quinn Cox / 0 Comments

Cancer 1° (June 21)

A lot can happen in a twenty four hour period, and though yesterday I was somewhat at my wit’s end with all the swirling of the to-do lists and the lack of follow through and deliverables from people, today I feel very much clearer and more empowered to move forward. Two weeks of intense yoga is going to be my main focus beginning this weeked as everything else is on track to hopefully fall into place. Two nights ago we had kind of a fun one just giving into pasta craving but with lentil pasta! so there was no guilt in that. I made a lovely sauce of fresh tomato, anchovy, oregano and onion with some fresh stock and spices. And we watched the Wigmovie which I partly enjoyed. I’m glad Lady Bunny got a little bit more spotlight than she’s received in the past. I really enjoyed presenting her at Oberon and we had a great crowd for her. Would be nice to do that again sometime. The vibe lately with producing is that everyone seems out to lunch. The artists the producers everyone just seems to be preoccupied (with what I don’t know) where it used to be so easy and effortless to communicate. There is definitely something going on culturally. It doesn’t help that the creamsicle menace in the White House is sort of then not declaring war. This is serious fucking stuff. Somebody needs to give him that old vaudeville hook. Anyway I have no more time nor energy to spend thinking about that fucking loser. We who grew up in and around New York know what an absolute loser he is. I can’t believe people across America are not more hip to this. But things are definitely changing. That was the hidden message of The Greeks show on PBS, something I’m going to want to watch.

Anywig, we launch our collection with Tim today and I have to leave here in about an hour and still have to put some finishing touches on the following notes as I stay on my schedule!!….

Sidebar Bible/Literature Mary Magdelene gnostic gospel loved most indispensable disciple. A vase of holy oil was her totem link to Pandora. Mary sacred harlot. lives on as Wendy, loved most by Peter but resented by his boy band. Also Sally Brown and Eliza Doolittle.

mishmash physique, nod to Pandora amalgam. small hands and feet compared to bod
looks better naked than clothed. hour-glass. skin tight, not sagging
she appears a feat of enineering. amorphous shape. curves defy physics.
exaggerated area, thick pubes, dark and lustrous, ruby red juicy yoni and pronounced
nipples are large dark insistent and change shape. body sexually responsive in extreme
feminine principle strong—needs no man to make her feel like natural woman
on natural theme: non synthetic comfortable clothes, earthy shoes, natural oil fragrance
pedicure under birkenstocks, her natural hair color managed by the best salon
her natural makeup is a slathering of expensive creams (people give her stuff as trade) this theme would carry through in terms of she lets people help her. she uses her victimhood and milks it for all its worth. she doesn’t mind others feeling sorry for her. especially her parents who will always set her up. she never much has to go it alone. it’s very much about favors. she does make parents out of people.

surprising big on body art piercings tatoos can be a surprise beneath bulky garments she loves a tunic which is strangely like a habit, a word that means an article of clothing but is also a nod to the 6th house of daily life and behavior
her style and grooming habits are about preserving youth rather than looking glam how long will Beyonce work those ripped jeans?
style of jewelry chachki. Macreme Mickey Mouse, never too precious/pristine in appearance.
she wants to appear down to earth she hopes to attract rugged, outdoorsy boyish men

but ends up also attracted the guy that swoops and sweeps her off her feet.

Side bar HouseThis could be very good to mine for ideas. Make photo copy.

Sex + Sexuality:

testament to Angelic Spirit that guys won’t jump her bones. I like Angelic Spirit feel
garners respect “for her person”. she is woman incarnate, mother earth made manifest

I think we can do something with this in archetypeal snapshot “can’t escape archetype”

she instills wonder and frear in hearts (of men). sensually sacred territory represented the dual (conflicting?) view of female kind—madonna/whore—a bomshell armed forces

thinking of Virgos I know they can be total know it alls and they really do absorb the expertise (repeating things back verbatim) of the mentors, mainly male, they imprint upon. they don’t much think about giving despite their assignation.

wanting to just lay her is akin to littering at the grand canyon. not really one of the boys
she doesn’t seem to be able to roll with the punches of casual fuck between friends.
she is not a superficial-surface character (she is the core) experiencing things deeply
feelings had on unfathomable level this is good her vacuous demeanor not withstanding

would be interesting to explore this depth vis a vis her void, vapid, vacuous nature

She is the perfect candidate to tell that she is open to empty

For her (and with her) the earth moves. I think of that character of the hypochondriacal waitress in Amelie who, when she finally has sex, it causes something of an earthquake (and her ailments also miraculously disappear) WHAT ADVICE TO GIVE EVELYN? WHAT ADVICE HAVE WE GIVEN Deb Paine, Heather, Jennifer Bell, Carmel Allen
The goddess of the harvest can’t just give away the farm. (we need to tell her?)without forming unbreakable emotional attachments. Then why is it they seem to have these marriages —Heather, Karen Kohlhass, where they don’t even seem to have liked the guy?
A whole lot of woman. She has loaded expectations. What other women might think casual crush she feels more weightily.
targets manchildren (peter pan syndrome) because she sees herself as wee girl?
but she doesn’t appear that way to these guys who feel she’s too epic to sexual satisfy and because she forms a sisterly sacred bond with these guys. “Sister Virgo, both sibling and nun. Like barging into a temple defiling it

Taking Shape

June 21, 2019 / Quinn Cox / 0 Comments

Cancer 0° (June 20)

The real deal is the next nineteen days, during which time I’ll have to make a little magic. I don’t like working under a lot of pressure, but I have shifted and massaged much of this year’s work into place already that I kind of don’t mind do a little marathoning for the next three weeks; and anyway, my time in England (a week before setting sail) needs to be super zen and productive as well. I am thinking I will check out that yoga studio near Pascale’s or even get myself to Bikram while there so I can keep the ball rolling on the fitness end of things. Today is sort of weirdly booked because yesterday included things like Triple A and moving meetings. I once wrote a sort-of treatise for a story called Eight Days and Nights of William Willing and it was all about entering into a type of magical time-space where the (amount of) things one is typically capable of doing is accelerated and made that much more prolific within this sort of realm-of-unfolding. And I truly believe in this possibility I must say. It takes a good deal of magic to get it going but it is terribly doable in the end if one puts the right spin on the spell. Anyway on to the work at hand today:

Polarity sidebar. Embodying quality element she is the hour-glass shaped vessel to be useful and productive also Sign Number is related to sex and more thatn just etymologically. Hexagram tantric symbol of erotic union. Two triangles intersecting is sacred intercourse. The seal of Solomon (only potentially ironic book of bible). Virgo: Holiness of their horniness.

insuates self in guise of being buddy buddy
in childhood close in age to brother she looks up to (even if he’s younger)
dress-alikes with mom, kids are meant to be carbon copies of parents
confuses sibling with love connection which makes her sisterly familiar to guys
meanwhile can be blurred with bro and border on incest
regardless siserly affection is confused with sextal interest
men assume she won’t put out…she can’t seem to give it away. eager beaver
she embodies the flipside of virginity: fustration
she bides her time until some dark stranger plungers her into depths of exploration
age group middle age, not quite reaching prime but nearly over akin to:
the time of year of harvest, things coming to full ripenesswhen sacrifices to Demeter
a last ditch at motherhood or resign herself to maidenhoodshit or get off the pot we are at the time (metaphorically) when it is time to reap what has been sown
projects this spinsterhood vibe often marrying much older men as if last ditch
channeling self into service (nuns becoming eternal sisternurses) becoming the cat lady
do-gooder, sisterly if not saintly saintly who one feels must be handled with kidgloves

the kid thing might better serve Capricorn.

Age Group 35-42 Old-maidenhood, at crossroads (Mercury god of)facing dilemma to give up maindenhood/independence for the loaded unreliable prospect of partnership. The truth being that many a Virgo doesn’t really want to give up that autonomy that they rather in effect remain the eternal girl, arrested development, don’t want to grow up. Psychologysuffers from emotiona blocks and arrested develoment can be neurotic about family ties and often clings. Easier said than done to be of service as she is overly dependent on siblings and plagued by resentments of their successes. She can be a fair-weather friend appropriating the mannerisms of people she must then do away with you see….*****

brand of sibling affection works both ways: men lover her as a sister; think nobody is good enough for her. she inspires overprotection on that score. that she’s too good for them even

BODY+SOUL

built, big boned, curvy not to mutable earth, undulating, majestic proportions
inviting as a lush landscape of rolling hills, peasanty body demanding rigorous attention
vacant smile bursts of rippling laughter, reserved, sparing in conversation
(smile) devoid of strong opinions or judgments, doesn’t want to be called upon.
sticks to acounts of her own dealings, blow by blow, like a daily soap opera (6th house) she would do well to focus her attentions more widely and universally.
quiety beautiful beaming safe in chummy group scanning in one direction stealing furtive glances in other. Generally shy, taking pains to downplay saftig physique
can be frumpish, appearing un-easy? not sure about this more like wears the same old thing looking as if in a state of becoming (wet hair, getting dressed in cab)
something gawky in her nature (throwback to first to reach puberty). a self assured Virgo will embrace this and embellish with boisterous humor and be larger than life.

Sidebar Archetype and Myth: Demeter?kore, Pandora. Sign corresponds to Harvest time.

stooping, rounded shoulders. Oompy but fragile, spine barely supporter her
rarely the athetic type, sticking to leisurely sports no competitive edge
•deliberate in her actions not just slow but cautous avoiding undo clumsieness
graceful but not ethereal
will let herself be caught crotch watching. hanging on guys words, leaning in all ears
she thinks she’s being seductive signaling interest but she comes off as easy to talk to
man will feel puffed up (she’s a fluffer, metaphorically) takes self-assured gentleman to pick up her subtle signals and awkward flirting, finding pleasure in old-fashioned demeanor and demure beauty. Beneficent face like a cameo. Round puppy dog eyes prominent cheekbones cherubic face, smooth skin prominent nose beaky weak chin

Right On Time

June 18, 2019 / Quinn Cox / 0 Comments

Gemini 28° (June 18)

By 10 a.m. this morning I’d like to resume reading through the entire chapter at hand and this way if it takes me two hours to do it takes me two hours to do. [It seems it will take a lot longer than that like maybe all Wednesday, which is fine, because I can focus some hours today also on putting the roster into wroks. I will type up everything as I go, book-wise, and once that’s all done and dusted, I can work through the proposal, looks like, all day Thursday; and why not. I’d like to take a half hour this morning to finish the Botanical Work. After the dentist tonight I will do my first Bikram. Time to rip off the band-aid. I’ll have information regarding the whitener which I’m going to want to do straightaway I think. Anyway let us get into the work at hand today.

Page One (269) “Snapshot”

Bundle of contradictions
Paradox: unassuming vs. fierce force to be reckoned with
Giving and nurturing vs. reliant on others
Dramatic curves, generous cushion. Bottom heavy or major booty
Air of accessibility —Fragility; inspires equal parts lust + protection Emotional fragility
Good girl image even when trying not to be
Bedding her sweet corruption
Give herself to man even in sexual way; pleasing sexual lord and master
Demands studly power man can feel diminished
The anti-waif, round and juicy, sex appeal even aging
Deferential to men; wants to be desired, indulged, envied by women (not sure that)

Page Two (270) “Sign + Mind”

Sidebar: Principle of Reconciliation—making ammends and healing

Ruler in dispute, argument for earth rule
Lack of clarity or confusion about above equals obscurity (wrong word)and muddiness
Sometimes warm and sunny othertimes stoical and icey (to obfusciate her motives)
What drives her is anyone’s guess (she hides the lead on what she wants from others)
One wonders if conscious of her own motivations (compulsive, Amy, can’t stop herself)
Open book, blannk page empty vessel waiting to be filled (add something about the vat)
Above makers her seem vapid or even venal
6th house of service, piece of clay, malleable to situations
Principles of conduct (conductivity doesn’t match sidebar which is that of reconciliation
Yielding her own desires o others needs—achieving synthesis (synergy)
To achieve common goals…..wants what you want
Here to help others achieve desired ends and in so doing she carves out her own niche typically as glorified helper (the niche thing relates to flightless birds)
Teachers, health workers, patroness (Pepper Potts is a Virgo archetype)

After all that it is strange to think. One tries to avoid problems but they nonetheless seem to follow—what is that? I decided to take a break from the wag and make a purchase which required and I was crucified. I don’t mind. It all comes out in the W A S H (women against social hostility? workers against stagnant homeowners). I’m not good at this and I don’t care. I can make myself happy anytime and anywhere; and, anyway, it is all about what ones personal style is all about. I know how my stylistic butter is spread. I’d like to get into it. I can still wear heels. But i’m going to wear rockstar wear this weekend. I’m a little heavier than I’d like to be but so fucking what. I’m healthy and I’m strong (touch wood) and if anybody has a problem with me then bring it on. Upfront. I’ve no time for the pussy footers that is for damned sure. I will contact D.C. tomorrow to say hi. Maybe he wants to learn to do stuff as I do.