Cancer 28° (July 19)

Another Monday I can’t even tell you what happened on this day to be honest. I think I spoke with D. There is nothing in the mailbox which is giving me pause. I will go to the cafe and see Bari I believe. I’m not even sure if this is what happens. I’m still recording what I wrote the first day at Mac’s. “You took the Gena Rowland eye which I bought. I will have to say what it costed. So many of the art works were bought by me. I bought expensive jewelry and watches and handbags as presents over the years. I don’t recall ever getting pricey presents in return”. Oh what a mess life is now. I’m so upset all the time and it’s going to be a month soon. I can’t keep going out to dinner I do need to try and make money instead. I will have celery soup I made tonight. More of the notebook fodder from eating out the other night. “I don’t suspect to understand any fucking thing. All I know is that she is safe and surrounded by people and I am totally alone.” I imagine the eye contact. “I did everything to support her.” Twenty and thirty somethings with blazers [I really cannot read what the notebook says] “My whole life has been about loving my beautiful wife all my life. How to not leave, put everything in storage, find winter rental. It will be my plan in coming weeks. I will make sure of it. I am not packing [words are illegible.” I think I am just so deep into my pain at this point that I can’t even write right. I don’t know how I’m going to survive any of this to be honest. It’s all starting up again only I cannot stay on this rollercoaster. For one I really can’t afford to. I wish I knew where she was but even that is being hidden from me. All of the above quotes from my notebook while eating out. It was healthy for me to get a little angry, only I’m not really angry at all. I’ve binge-watched so many shows. I will get to the bottom of it all. I need to start taking control. I need to set the house up as a shop of sorts and put things on sale one by one. I will create an event for it and do it that way, virtually. As well as figure out my game plan. I definitely want to stay local where I at least have friends. And this way I’ll be close storage as well. I am a bit over being vilified. I’m exactly who I’ve been all these years. I do need to start moving forward. I’m not going to let this sink me. I’m entitled to half of everything. I have to write myself out of this. Starting Monday I need to get back to the book. I think the rest of the Blagues on which I’m behind should start to outline everything that needs doing/addressing. I think that would be a very positive way of approaching all of this. I also need to start outreaching to about ten people a day about my predicament. I do feel I might have a better chance at friendship this way. I’m afraid to rip myself away lest I become super depressed. I need to focus on self and health that is the only way to not only survive but perhaps even benefit if that word still exists in any language.

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Cancer 27° (July 18)

Back to the dulldroms. I think I just watched Atypical all day. I’m writing these days later and trying to figure out from the blur what happened when. The other night, the fifteenth, when I sat at the sushi bar, the day Brian came, the day before our contract was cancelled. I wrote “Today was the day Dobie came to take it away. It was heavily emotional followed by a little bit of relief. But not enough. I don’t care no if I live or die. I have taken uber to Mac’s Shack I thinI learned that people suck. People especially suck when you’re been married to them for you whole life. I have to write big. And I want to die, preferably tonight and not by my own hand. I need to think of all the things I know and remember about that case. Has he feigned all of this and taken me for a ride. Is she presenting this as if its some kind of superior. That would be ridiculous. I want to get so something. I only have three days per sign now and I’m going to do it from four to ten in the morning. One doesn’t deserve to know me. This may well be my last night on Earth. I wrote that word clearly. Not that anyone will ever read it. I ordered a dozen oysters and I’ve just did it again. How can she do this? What a I’ve decided the way to refer to a case is to give them a c-minus. I have spent my life bringing along and now is is going to go beyond. My own baroness took me out to dinner. Fuck this shite, and I am going to move through this bullshit like nobody’s business. I will not be marginalized nor should I let shis sink me. I will be succeeding. Today was really the most depressing of my life. I will not be taken down by this I will not be taken down by it. Unfortunately I feel that there will be karmic payback for this. I understand in many ways that this is karma paying me back, although I do not think the punishment fits the crime. And it is evident now that friends have been turned against me. I’ve decided I’m not going. All the shite can move to storage and the businesses will have to pay for that. And if one thinks they getting [something] or any bit of what I scrimped and saved they have another thing coming.”

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Cancer 26° (July 17)

Needless to say I am back in my bed today and I’m not getting out. I have never been so depressed upon depressed upon depressed by the domino effect of these actions. I am bisexual and always have been since I was “initiated” at eleven. As happens I seduced other boys my own age. Let’s just say that from early adolescence I didn’t have to wait for a girl to get off with, there was always a dual-purpose guy friend on hand, especially one, who, like everyone I write about on this topic, will go nameless. He was my “best friend” if boys have best friends but we also got it on. We even sometimes had a bath time. But it was never emotional. Funny to say that in many ways we were a gross-out to each other, but it worked for, get this, from just after sixth grade until we graduated high school. By the time I was seventeen I had already spent two years getting into clubs, some pretty hardcore places, punk and new-wave clubs, where we would do coke on the pinball machine, dance this mess around, and drink multiple shots of kamikaze’s, pouring them ourselves, from shakers with strainers we were served. Today is not a good day. I feel vilified more than ever. Apparently, my wife has custody of a certain mutual friend who will not return my emails or texts. Thank gosh for our best friends in London who have been going between, although I am already aware, as will prove out, that it might not be totally even-steven, but more an agent for her agenda. Or maybe I’m paranoid. Anyway, as I say I’m once again down for the count. In the end I will take myself back out and see Eileen Ford’s daughter whatever her name is. I can’t really afford to eat out and uber back and forth but until I figure out what to do with my nights. And I think, for whatever reason, I won’t be charged with the full meal. Not sure why that is. I had to get out of the house. I keep cycling through the same sadness. I still can’t believe I’m in this situation. Was I never to express myself? I don’t know how else I could have balanced things out. I certainly never meant to hurt of bother anyone. Anyway, it’s all becoming sad water under a bridge. I will be forever altered. I won’t be able to live in this world the way I have. The security of the relationship gave me room to be indulgent. Now, I need to be much more vigilant which is probably closer to the personality she wished I’d expressed. Ironic, all of it.

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Cancer 25° (July 16)

So yesterday was one of the most traumatic days of my life and yet I did end up connecting with the b-i-l and it was good to be able to have a human here while I went through all my emotions. Let me back up. This Blague was never really meant to be a forum for personal life and all that involves. But, over the years, there were times where it took on a personal feel. But it was never confessional and certainly not on the level of exposition in the extreme ever before. I thought this would be the worst day (I will be very shortly very wrong). I decided fuck this I’m going to Uber to dinner and back again. I went to Mac’s Shack and despite the throngs was seated immediately at the sushi bar—the first perk of being single. I ordered a pint of house Krolsch and a dozen oysters. I then did the exact thing again, one of my second dozen going to my neighbor whose name was Jo, there with her pretty daughter whose name escapes me. I then had chowder. I then had sushi—crabby crunch roll, mackerel nigiri, and a spicy tuna handroll and more beer. I was suddenly exhausted explaining to Jo and daughter the laste few events of my life. I was shocked that young waitstaff kept coming up to me because apparently they remember we/us from when they were teenagers working here. You could see the question in their eyes: Why are you here alone? Is she dead? Sorry but that’s what I saw in their eyes. I was going to use the company card to pay as a fuck you but I didn’t do that in the end. Ubers by the way are super expensive when you take them on the outer Cape. Holy Ef. And meanwhile they are nearly impossible to book. Good thing I won’t do this again for a very long time I thought. And yet two days later I will repeat this but on a budget plan. I wrote large scribbles into a notebook that I would love to read and type back; but that would be impossible at this point. It felt amazing to be out and seen and to converse. I am reminded that I’m the personality who outreaches to folks in the world. I am flooded with the fact that she is going to fuck me over every which way. The way this happened to my mind (not hers) is ridiculous. To my mind also cruel in the sense that she led me to believe every night we sat outside having wine and nibblies and dinners—one of the ways, like cleaning, I show love–to allow me to do all this on the night she knows she’s leaving? Holy merde. She will say it was the only way she could do it. She did say that; and I totally believe her. But I heard her planning this months ago on Facetime with her friend Noelle in Canada. I was at the dryer folding laundry, separated basically by thin paneling while she’s under earbuds not realizing she’s nearly shouting. I calmly addressed her when she got off her call and was ready for wine and nibblies. I said just so you know I heard you saying that once the book was finished in six months or so you’re going to leave. I also heard you say that you need to be with someone who desires you in the way you need to be desired. I told you I heard you. And you gaslit me. You said I misheard and immediately deflected saying you were responding to the fact Noelle was saying that Joe had sexual issues of a sort.

Oh, and yeah, the pulblisher cancelled our book deal. I found out from a forward from the person who is most responsible for that happening. Had we handed in another 5-6 chapters during the fortnight plus since she left…well, again: I believe she believed it had to happen this way but I strongly state it did not. We were on the same page. We were going to write and edit six pages a day and we would have ruled the school. She hates me on some deep levels and she’s entitled to that too. 

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Cancer 23° (July 14)

Was meant to get some procedure at the dentist but I’m still too ill with fatigue. I fear my reflexes even driving fifteen minute journey. I must sign off on one leg of my writing journey and enter another today. Had a pot a coffee for the first time in two weeks thinking it would help. Nope I just feel more nervous. Lost 11 lbs in 14 days. Screw Noom. Try Gloom and Doom. Happy Bastille Day. Happy Birthday to my friend MP across the pond who has been so instrumental in this difficult time. I can’t feel my legs. That’s not good right? Better work before I lose all steam this day. God I hope I can sleep and eat something today. Ok to writing: Whereas singular elements of sisterhood are an aspect of the premier fire sign of Aries by way of its ruling goddess Athena, she is really the “daughter archetype” in astrology and other esoteric disciplines, while Artemis represents the “sister archetype” in the fire sign of Leo. First, Artemis has a twin, Apollo, which speaks to the fact that Leo will typically have a close male friend in her youth, and several in a series, throughout her life, with whom she feels a mind-meld and an familial affinity. And of course, Artemis has a retinue of female companions whom she protects and whom generally genuflect in her direction. This will also become a feature in Leo’s life. But as with anyone, real family members included, all such, often revolving, creatures serve at the pleasure of their queen. And like the female servants of Cleopatra, they must be prepared to lay down their lives for her, metaphorically speaking (of course?).            Funny how Sheba and Cleo are traditionally popular names for cats. The etymology of Cleopatra is “glory of the father”, that father principle, again, not dissimilar to that of Dorothy, really. We long associated the advent of “glory days” or “salad days” with the archetypes of golden boy, Leo, only to later realize the phrase originates in Shakespeare’s Anthony and Cleopatra uttered by guess who. Cleo says, …My salad days/When I was green in judgment, cold in blood/To say as I said then! What is the meaning of this? It’s about understanding circular nature, the imagery of which is all over this sign with its magnetic orbit. The major drama of interest in the life of Cleopatra hinges on those pivotal years leading up to middle age associated with Leo, 28-35, she dies just four years after. And here she is in the work of the bard, circling back to reference her energy, her spirit in youth, green in judgment, salads are green, so too are they cold, like her blood, a killer, and she’s tapping into that energy, in her maturity, only to presumably do so, now, with aplomb. She recognizes and employs her raw energy—salads are also raw. This is not only teachable moment, by example, for you, Leo, designed for you to recall times in your life when your raw, green spirit won the hour. We are actually talking about your own fixed fire, the raw energy of your spirit, something you can look back and document spontaneously surfacing at this or that juncture in your life, never failing to affect a positive re-animation of your life. Salads, too, are wild. And Cleopatra is speaking to a time when her own fire ran as such. But by way of retrospection, she is connecting the dot between a past cycle of experience to her present one, speaking to a cyclical experience of reality. 

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Cancer 22° (July 13)

I’ve got to figure out the sleep stuff in the early hours and break my writer’s block in the afternoon. I did a pretty good job. This happened in the first week of loneliness: I had this amazing dream. I was in a sort of mall but there were what I thought would be really nice apartments upstairs from it with elevators emptying into this indoor public space. I was racing through this mall and turned a corner and sort of bumped into this lady who I knew just got off the elevator feet away and she was headed for a sort of side door into a café-diner. We amicably apologized for running into one another. She had bright red hair and was wearing a blue suit hued somewhere between powder and French royal (more the latter) and we did a double take of recognition. I said you’re Lucille Ball and she recognized me as one of her students (I never studied with Lucille Ball but if you ever have a chance to read The Pink Gorilla by the late great Taylor Negron, you must do that); now I had in real life studied with Uta Hagen and I think my subconscious had its own purposes for this conflation. In dream world, I agreed that she had coached me on my audition for the National Actors Theater, which in reality I was a member of, but for which I never had to perform audition material. I think I said, yes, you helped me with the Puck monologue. She was still basically holding this side door to this café-dinner that was in this mall but neither resto nor mall was shabby. Rather it was the kind of indoor space that one finds and expects in Toronto. We sat together and then went back up to her apartment. I am in the middle of working on material about Leo woman. I’m sure that has everything to do with it. Still writing a bit today:What many a Leo learns the hard way is that she can lose her spiritual footing all too easily as the result of romantic involved, especially early in life. We advise the Leo to take her Artemis (and by extension her Hestia) archetype quite literally. One of the paradoxes of the sign is that our beautiful center of attention will suddenly drop this assignation and make a would-be lover or romantic partner the center of her world, when, more times than not, she can run rings around ‘em. If you’ve been through that, Leo, it’s likely a pattern that has repeated. The truth is that Leo tends to enter into what she considers serious, adult relationships fairly early in life and, as purpoted for years, she is drawn to those she feels has a passion for life that matches her own. The usual trap she falls into is that these fiery types she beelines for have a self-destructive, scorched-earth approach to life, which will see the Leo feeling especially burned. This isn’t a bad thing. Time and again we have seen the Leo woman who finds herself suddenly alone, by design or by dumping, thrive in the extreme when she exits a, typically intense, relationship. Artemis energy is here to teach the Leo that she needs to go it alone in life, ironically, if she’s going to make the best kind of love match. She needs not need the person with whom she couples. Instead, her partner must be the one she is willing to materialize, which can take time and require patience. A partner should also reflect her fully realized self, even if she has quite gotten there herself—just as she imagines herself at full height and full strength, befitting her sign’s rule of the spine, she must take that same will power, in every sense of the term, and hold out for someone that suits whom she is ultimately to become. In the meantime, there is so much benefit to be had. Artemis energy is essentially wild, feral; and from observation, Leo always does well to maintain her freedom until such time as a relationship comes along in which she can continue to retain it. She will thus hunt for her life more vehemently, which is never a bad thing. 

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Cancer 21° (July 12)

This day and night is the last time I want to feel as low as I have. Tomorrow will mark two weeks and I think that’s quite enough time in a state of despondency. This shit is definitely real. I will make a little pasta and try to normalize as best I can. And then I completely lose it and it is actually one of the worst nights. I tried to do a little something: Just as the Leo woman is the most likely to walk in her ruler Sun, finding her place in life where she can excel, blazing trails of glory, so too is the shadow that is cast by a dissatisfied Leo that much darker and longer if she isn’t passionately engaged in a life pursuit. Symptoms of an unfulfilled Leo tend to include grousing and a rather grouchy need to tear down others she feels are ringing bells and grabbing brass rings, targeting other women especially. To cure yourself of being, or avoid becoming, a female Garfield, that armchair autocrat, pointing fingers at others’ would-be foibles, we prescribe getting a notebook, perhaps in a putrid color, into which you are going to write your gripes about people, places and things instead of voicing them. Every day, as you’re tempted to bad-mouth someone, let’s say, for this or that, just jot it down; and then ask yourself is it a valid complaint or just so much sour grapes. Put a check, a v for valid, next to your “good gripes” because those you can do something about. The sour-grapes ones will forever be consigned to the notebook never to be repeated again. You can always read back to remind yourself of those, but mum is the word on them from here on in. Now, this is where your gripe book becomes something of a grimoire, that is to say a wee book of spells: You are going to take your valid gripes, stated in the negative as they are, and you are going to isolate the upshot, the therefore positive thing you see needing doing to right that particular wrong. As such, you may find yourself reaching for this notebook multiple times a day, perhaps, recording your gripes, flagging them valid or not, and turning the valid ones into positively actionable items. It’s all food for thought in that, by way of this process, something will jump off the page for you. In fact, many things will. And you will ultimately have a list of possible passionate pursuits that you can take on, and with which to run on your own golden path.

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Cancer 20° (July 11)

I don’t think I’m ever going to come out the other side of this. I can’t help today that I’ve been kicked with this subversive thing on the way out the door. It’s not like I’ve ever not been who I am. The pain is terribly unbearable. I never knew we weren’t going to be happy forever. I wish there was some way out of this pain. Anyway the writing must go on: In large part, Leo believes in an animating force. It is rare indeed to happen upon a woman of this sign who doesn’t believe in a cosmic presence, call it what you will. Someone as extraordinary as herself, after all, cannot be an accident, but the pinnacle intention of a divine intelligence. By the same token, the female Leo population boasts great believers in astrology, again being a person-centric discipline, taking a cerebral, esoteric approach to the study, rather than one of popular appeal. The beauty about the macrocosmic world is that it is incredibly ordered, planets sticking to definitive paths (there’s that theme again) such that we can predict with accuracy where every orb will be, or has been, at any point in time. The Sun symbol, a central dot within a circle, speaks to the outer orbit around a central sphere, which is the basic patterning of the universe, just as cells in our body have nuclei around which other bits circle. This regularity emblemizes Leo’s brand of spirituality, there is a certainty to it, a self-evidence, which she herself personifies. She takes center stage in people’s lives, the nucleus, and, as we say, is prone to play god(dess), typically in the best ways possible. Doing for others, being like the generative Sun, is the byproduct of successfully positioning herself in life to do just that. This, she should feel, is her spiritual purpose. That was advice, Leo: It is your spiritual assignment to see yourself as a kind of life center, imagining yourself as a benefit to those who make up your sphere, and forever finding new ways to shine your benevolence on those in closest orbit.  This is one and the same as capturing people’s hearts. The Leo woman is designed to take pride in contributing to the good fortune of loved ones; unawares she is solidifying, if not tying, said bonds with those who may will thus owe her a debt of gratitude, which raises her status in relationships, as it should be. As god’s wee co-creator here on earth, she even takes a restored behavioral approach to how, she might imagine, a living goddess, with untold power to shine her boon bounties in ever increasing concentric circles. This is true spirituality for the Leo—being like the Sun to other people, an agent of that fifth house of love given being her soulful purpose on the planet.

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Cancer 19° (July 10)

The loneliness is so bad. I can’t stop the pain. I’m so lonely. I will get words back and forth through MP. And then I will actually make fish dinner which I haven’t been able to do. I want to say baby steps but those aren’t even really happening. I simply don’t have the words, but I keep trying: She expresses the same trademark tenacity and voracity she applied to her own upbringing, on behalf of her children, for whom she likewise believes outsized destinies await. Leo is ambitious for her children, setting them on multiple paths so they might develop diverse skills and talents. She maintains status in these relationships, and when her kids return home from school, they might feel they are entering into an even more advanced classroom, headed by a expectant professorial parent who is endlessly offering life lessons, stimulating thought and growth; or they should do. Leo woman doesn’t as a rule struggle with parenting, but at times she can be at a loss to find the sweet spot between strict and fun-loving, the prescription for which is to take on the “restored behavior” of their favorite, best, fun-loving but most challenging teacher they remember growing up, someone who had the most influence on her, and take major pages from that character’s book. Typically, Leo woman ultimately couples with a care-taking father figure, who may even play more of a nanny role with children, being the one to lord over bath- and bedtimes. They may go to him for comfort and other emotional support over the Leo mother who is more authoritative, if not at times authoritarian. Going to a Leo woman with your problems with either elicit a sort of “move-on, get-over-it” brand of advice or it will trigger an story excerpt from her own life that she deems most applicable. The second quadrant of the zodiac, into which the sign of Leo falls, smack-dab, in the middle is that of the metaphysically emotional level of existence. Leo is not the receptive Cancer, whose mantra is I feel, preceding her on the astrological wheel; she of the I will motto is often determinate to a fault, often immediately needing to impose “form” on matters of feeling. So, she might advise you to think and do this, that and or the other and to cut-out other thoughts, feels and behaviors that don’t suit the situation, putting people on definitive paths. It’s all very on brand for the ritual goddess of the chase who, like her ruler Sun, which must stick to a clear, exact track for moving forward, beyond, somewhere over the next rainbow.

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Cancer 18° (July 9)

I think I will focus on living in Gloucester or Salem and finding a somewhat affordable apartment that I can live in for next several years until things become clearer. This way I can also set myself up as an astrological consultant and take on high profile clients but be close enough to S. (hopefully) to work on other aspects of the business. I tried writing some key mutual friends and they are not responding. Pandemic, drought, blackouts. I have to write something today let us try and see what that might be: The huntress doesn’t hate her prey, she actually identifies with it, a protectress thereof, such that the hunt is more specifically a ritual drama of sacrifice to oneself, not to be confused with self-sacrifice. The unevolved Leo woman will be that shadow side, taking up space in her greed for negative attention, self-sabotaging in her complaints of others, everything, Toto. She may be an armchair autocrat, mercilessly lashing out of a lack (of courage) to hunt and eat her prey, love, the self-sort specifically. Artemis and Hestia aren’t lacking love because they take no consorts, rather they have enough love to provide themselves all the emotional sustenance required. One would think that the literary archetype of Kit in Shakespeare’s The Taming of the Shrew would be lumped into the shadow-side category of the Leo woman psyche, but not so. She’s continually fighting, hunting to achieve her goal of remaining autonomous while also entering into relationship. The mark of an evolved Leo woman on that score is enjoying a certain formality, even in her most intimate bonds, and indeed Leo tends to be one of the least co-dependent characters on the astrological block. That said, there must also be a palpable passion in her love bonds, particularly aimed in her direction. As a parent Leo is rarely fawning, maintaining a healthy distance, discipline and authority over her children. One thinks of a mother lioness, quietly affectionate and tolerant but not incapable of delivering a few well aimed love-taps to keep over-indulgence at bay. While many mothers instinctively wish their children would remain youngsters forever, Leo woman seems to be raising adults, from the get go, perhaps as a projection of how she felt as a child, which was typically not very childlike. 

To view the original Sabian Symbol themed 2015 Cosmic Blague corresponding to this day: Flashback! The degree point of the Sabian Symbol may at times be one degree higher than the one listed here. The Blague portrays the starting degree of for this day ( 0°,  for instance), as I typically post in the morning, while the Sabian number corresponds to the end point (1°) of that same 0°-1° period. 

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